I cant get over you.
It is 11.37pm now. I still have not recieved any replies from him. It's expected but still i am expecting miracles to happen, ironically, i still remember he said that miracles wont happen. To me, it is possible. Anyhting can be possible.
I know it is not easy to forget the past. But it cant be in your mind for the rest of your live. There is a change in everything. You just cant assume that the history will be repeated again and i will be commiting the same mistakes again. I know you will never believe me again. NEVER! How am i to convince you that i really love you from the bottom of my heart?? And you said, u have forgiven me but you could not forget about it... Haish...
Being your bestie will make me even much more happier?? I dont think so.. You never see it and you shall never feel how i am feeling now and through out.. I've gone through alot of miseries for not being with you.. Yes, only God knows how my feelings are when i keet thinking of you..
Many of the others said that i am so foolish to go for a younger person like you. They said that you are just playing with my heart. However, i dont give an effing care about that.. I know what i am thinking and i know myself.. I know that you are the one for me... You are my only one Di...
So this year, again i will not get what i have wished for my birthday.. Unfortunately.. Haish.. This few hours made my eyes red... Tears keep coming out non stop... And its painful.. Most painful deep inside my heart... Sorry I cant continue.. Till here...
still hoping...
Sunday, October 21, 2007
