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Shahrul Muhaimin proud to be son of Shahlan Shamsi aka Ruth turning 17 in 22 October 2008. Emotionally attached with Y . critisize hypocritez vexed by Bitches & Plastics ..

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Sunday, March 16, 2008

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It has been a vey long time since my last post and I dont know where to start now, or how. I thought i am done with it and him. Unfortunately, i'm wrong. It's hard when both of us are close together by seeing each other everyday and it is even harder when we are far apart. One year has past. and the beautiful disaster is still rolling over and over. Sometimes i just thought that the story is not logic!

I want to be with you. That's all i want to do. I'm only 17 and many said that it is time to enjoy. But i dont want that. Why is it hard for you to understand me? Why is it hard for everyone to do so? I may have my ego and same goes to you. I'm trying hard to change myself. But have you noticed it? Yeah, i admit that i may be unreasonable at times. Talking about appreaciating. Did you ever felt thankful to be a friend of mine at least?? Answer this to yourself honestly.

  • Why cant i smile whenever i walk away after meeting you?
  • Why cant i look into your eyes whenever you say 'hi' or 'bye' to me?
  • Why are there others around with us while i only want to spend time wth you?
  • Why cant i be the one to talk to you on the phone at night?
  • Why cant i be the first person to hear your laughter whenever you have something good to tell?
  • Why am i not the one whom can listen to your heart?
  • Why am i not the person whom you love?

  • Have you ever wonder why i keep looking at your eyes while you are talking to your friends or looking somewhere else and i know you noticed it?
  • Have you ever wonder why the word 'Asal?' or 'Awak OK ke tak?' keep coming out from my mouth?
  • Have you ever wonder why i keep asking you not to walk so fast?
  • Have you ever wonder why i keep quiet whenever you are talking with your friends?
  • Have you ever wonder why do i always ask you to hang up the phone first before me?
  • Have you ever wonder why i didnt make any move unless you cant be seen whenever you are going back home?
  • Have you ever think who i am inside?

  • If only i could see your smile and your bucked tooth everyday.
  • If only i could hug you whenever i meet you.
  • If only you could hold my hand firmly before saying goodbye.
  • If only you trust my words and have faith in me.
  • If only YOU LOVE ME.

Remember this, I will always be waiting for you.

Shahrul.

some have got their Aces but you've got the ROYAL FLUSH; Sunday, March 16, 2008