We went to have mass iftar at Sawan's house.. Thanx to him larh.. Her mum's chicken rice was great! Serious! But it would be better if there is a honer bbq chicken wings, some cheesy sausages, ice jelly cocktail, air kathira, any ice cream deserts, hawaiian pizza, lagsania... yarh.. I think that should make the iftar a superb one... Hehekz... Memaen jer... Shahrul BA"ALWI arrived late.. Hakz.. After that, as all of them were craving for Munchie's, so we headed to Causeway Point... Yarh... Ayul, Shahrul, Yenny and I shared to buy a dozen of them. As u guys know we are all the kecohrable people.. So wad do eu expect?! We have the young at heart blood! hahakz.... And now comes the theme of the day....
Adalah satu makcik bertudung (alhamdulillah). There are some of us like so excited seeing the doughnuts... They were jumping etc. I said, "Korg ni mcm uncivilise larh... hahakz..." in a joking manner... After a few minutes, i heard this makcik said " Ni budak2 takder discipline punye rorang..." I kept quiet. I thought she will just say it once. But, after a few minutes... She went again.. Critisizing or badmouthing us!!! I told yenny.. I cant tahan sia like this... I look at her, HUH!!! And, i say it all out loudly , "MAKCIK NI BULAN PUASA BUAT DOSA JER!! Hahakz.. I hope she heard that.. Geram sak.... Makcik g bukak tudung sua.. Jaga tu mulut... jgn kasi org dengar, suara tu aurat.. Yang makcik g beratur kat sini uat per?? Kan lagi bagus berdiri menunaikan terawih 20 rakaat??!!! AARRRGH!!!! Geram beta!!
Kekurangan pada Ramadhan tahun ini.
Memang berlainan sekali semangat menyambut Ramadhan tahun ini dengan tahun-tahun sebelumnya. Tanpa sangsi memang aku percaya ada kekurangannya kali ini. Banyak yang telah berlaku hingga menyebabkan Ramadhan kali ini yang paling 'muram' buat diriku. Bohonglah aku jika aku mengatakan bahawa aku amat riang pada Ramadhan ini. Memanglah gembira kerana bulan ini amat bermakna dan mempunyai kelebihannya.
Apakah perasaan seorang anak yang tidak dapat berbuka puasa dengan ayahnya pada tahun ini? Apakah perasaaan seorang anak itu apabila berjumpa dengan ayahnya hanya sekali di bulan Ramadhan ini? Apakah yang ayah sajikan untuk berbuka? Siapakah yang memasakkan untuk ayah untuk sahur nanti? Soalan-soalan seperti ini sering bermain di dalam cawan fikirinku. Aku hanya berkesempatan sekali sahaja untuk berbuka bersama ayahku. Ayahku kini jauh dari sisiku. Mencium tangannya sebelum ke sekolah? Ah, selalu jumpanya di rumah. Memberitahunya sebelum keluar rumah? Jumpa juga nanti di rumah. Hari-hari akan kutemui ayahku. Namun begitu, itu dahulu. Kini memang aku merinduinya. Sangat merinduinya. Baru aku sedar wujudnya kasih sayang di antara ayah dan seorang anak. Baru kini kusedari bahawa buat apa hendak dimalukan jika seorang anak yang sebaya dengan aku ini mencium tangan ayahnya sebelum ke sekolah. Aku pelik. Mengapa ramai di luar sana yang hampir segan mencium pipi ayahnya sendiri di khalayak ramai ataupun di rumah sekalipun? Dewasa ini, ingin sekali aku mencium dan mendakap ayahku setiap hari. Ini hanya akan berlaku jika berkesempatan. Tidak seperti sekarang. Semuanya telah berubah.
Dengan sendirinya aku terfikir. Mengapakah aku dipilih untuk menghadapi segala onak dan duri hidup pada usia sesingkat aku ini?? Mengapa aku yang harus menempuh segala penderitaan emosi? Terlalu banyak perkara yang harus aku selesaikan. Keluarga, sekolah dan perhubunganku bersama kawan-kawan. Aku tahu untuk tidak mencampuradukkan masalah-masalah sedemikian. Walaubagaimanapun, itulah kelemahan diriku.
Aku ketawa, senyum dan bergurau di hadapan rakan-rakanku. Tetapi tahukah mereka betapa peritnya untuk aku menelan segala hempedu yang diberikan? Aku tidak pernah menunjukkan kepada mereka. Aku tidak rasa aku sudah matang dengan fatamorgana dunia di luar sana. Aku masih seorang budak kecil yang berumur 16 tahun dan yang masih lagi belum mahir dengan dunia sebenarnya. Tambahan lagi dengan keraguanku pada diriku sendiri.
Aku rindu keluargaku! Rindu sebuah keluarga yang telah mangasuhku hingga dewasa. Walaupun rumahtangga yang porak-peranda, sering bertengkar, pernah sesekali membenci kedua orang tuaku, yang juga pernah bersikap biadap dengan mereka, namun, merekalah keluargaku yang sebenar. Keluarga yang hadir sekali seumur hidup. Nenek dan datukku yang sudahpun selesa dipanggil 'mak' dan 'bak' telah pun bermastautin ke kampung. Lagilah jarang aku menemui mereka.
Ramadhan kali ini adalah yang paling bermakna buat diriku. Ini kerana perbezaannya yang amat ketara. Aku tidak lagi bersama keluargaku. Aku hanya bersama dengan ibuku dan adik perempuanku dan itu bukan keluarga. Definisi
KELUARGA bagiku adalah, Ibu, Ayah, Adikku dan Dirku sendiri.
"Ayah, walaupun abang jarang cium tangan ayah atau tak pernah sekalipun peluk ayah, jangan sangka yang abang tak pernah terniat pun nak lakukan itu semua. Abang memang nak sangat dakap ayah tapi memang abang rasa janggal sekali. Akhir kata, Abang sangat rindukan ayah dan abang betol sayangkan ayah"
"Janganlah sesekali perasaan malu itu wujud dalam diri kita untuk memeluk ataupun memberitahu mereka betapa sayangnya kita kepada mereka."
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Friday, September 28, 2007
Friday
It was the last paper of prelims. *sigh* Its an hour paper only. The time journey to school is much more longer than the time i spent in school that day. Started at 730 and ended at 830. After my classmates have got no plans. We didnt want to go home as it is still early. VERY! Wanted to watch movie. Hairspray! AGAIN for some of them. Unfortunately, the movie has ended! zzzzzz.... So we took neoprints! Hahakz... Fun larh!! I took 168 home and yarh was kinda late.. I rushed home coz need to go for Friday prayers... I went to An-Nur. Ya Allah, its damn crowded... Its a small mosque.. so yarh... Hakz... (pergi solat jumaat bukan dapat pahala bnyk tapi dosa plak! sebab, banyak yang hensem2 seh! Astaghfirullah....)
Saturday
I was assigned to cover Ramadhan Rox today. I must be there at around 4? Yah, and i reached there at almost 5 i guess... I was like so mad larh, damn that day! SEAN AH!!!! First, i took 168, it was damn slow... till in the middle of expressway of SLE, it stopped... Then reverse.. Repeatedly for so many times... I was like wth... The aircon was off.. After about 10 mins, we need to alight. The bus brokedown. We need to transfer to another bus IN THE MIDDLE O EXPRESSWAY!!! It was an experience though... Lolx... Then when it reached to TPE after Punggol flyover, the trafic was not moving AT ALL!!! There was a lane which was closed... So the traffic was very slow, if i were to walk to Tampines, i will reach ferst! Haiya....
Ramadhan Rox is at Changi Adventure Club. Its isolated! Hurhur... Not boring larh coz got so many 'barang baik' there! lolx...
After iftar, my brother picked me up and went to Vivo.. Bought some stuff there then headed to Arab St. We had Arab Mint Tea, Hummus and of course, Shissha!!!! We sat there for hours!!! Lolx...
For you,
define BESTIES for me please.
dA'Ruth
what is besties to you?
Sunday, September 23, 2007
Amerie & Chris Daughtry
Wokay I'm back!!! Hehekz. Sorry for not updating for quite sometime.. I've benn really busy with Prelims and stuff... sigh! Am i ready for O's?? I should ask that for myself... I know, I am not! Hahakz... blah...blah...blah...
Last Friday, Berita Harian sent me to intervew a celebrity, half Korean and half African, AMERIE!!! Do you guys no her?? Her skin is tanned, doesnt look like any Korean child... Lolx.. Yarh! She looks like Rihanna with Beyonce's skin! lolx... She is a very nice girl though... Very the mommy's daughter as in always obey her mum.. She could only go out on Fridays while the other days need to be at home and study.. Only 15 mins given to make phone calls except for study matters... This is when she was in the University... Yarh, Around 20 years old?? hehekz...
This Wednesday, I will be interviewing Chris Daughtry!!! He was from American Idol top 3 i guess.. yarh... Anyone wants to follow me?? Hehekz... BLuekz!!! Felina,, too bad!
I think thats all larh... Need to start my revision now... Take caire people!!!
PS; to my bestie, thanx for the words yesterday, really appreciated.. :)
; WAWAN!!! WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN???????
dA'Ruth
Monday, September 17, 2007
Saturday & Sundaes!!!
I woke up at 530 am on saturday. Just had a few hours of sleep. I need to report at 730 am at Singapore Press Holdings. Theres a function, Forum Guru held there for malay techers in Singapore. My job there was only to help with the OBOR booth but thanx to Wawan ekh for not turning up last minute and i need to replace you for the Sajak Recitation. Thanx ekh! Lolx.. Luckily it runs smoothly although that was my first time reciting a Sajak in front of public.. Lolx... Got many praises though. :) Aziqa and Aishah was there. Brought them to have a tour at SPH, Berita Harian Office (my future office) etc. At 1200, Aishah, Aziqa and i rushed to Darul Ihsan for hosting in Bursuries Presentation. We reached there at 1245??? And the function starts at 3!!! We were damn effing early larh!! Ps: Aishah, air katira die POWER GILER beb!!! lolx..
After that, we proceed to Bugis to have our lunch at Banquet at Raffles Hosp. Initially we planned to go to Harbout Front but it was kinda too far. After that, we took the same bus 21. Aishah and Aziqa heading home and i would be alighting at Geylang there. I went to sleep before that i asked them to wake me up when reaching o my stop.
In the bus;
"Esa, Aziq, kejut aku kalau dah sampai daerah Geylang tau.. aku nak tido jap..."
"Ah yelah-yelah.."
When i opened my eyes, I AM ALREADY AT MARINE PARASE ENTERING TO BEDOK!!!!!!!!!!!! You know what? Esah n Aziq were also sleeping.. Still sleeping when i woke up... Gone CASE! Then i alighted at Tanah Merah and took train to Paya Lebar.
I went to Kampun Melayu for the Lighting Up Of Hari Raya Lights Ceremony. I am part of the organiser. So got to meet the celebrities again... Iwan Dangdut, Mamat Exist, Tety Kadi, Shahril etc.... Gerek larh Shey!! lolx.. && There was this one minister, he was so cute larh!! Arabish look n so boyish.. but i know he is in his early thirties...
On Sunday i woke up at 1230 and straight to Woodlands CC. FUN, DMAX etc.. All was there... And people,, You guys wanna knw something?? Hehekz... SShhhh,, i am kinda have a crush with someone there just now. I was eyeing for him since last week at Wawan's dome.. Those who know about him, diam-diam ekh.. hehekz....
IT IS JUST A CRUSH!!! I AM STILL LOVING SAYYIDI....
Klah, thats all.... Bye!!! Wish me luck for my Prelims yarh!
dA'Ruth
missing 'D' in_ARKNESS
Monday, September 10, 2007
The Fry-day
(nothing significant)
I was late again for school today. It's just a half an hour late though. Hehekz.. I had Chemistry remedial just now. Intensive? VERY! hakz.... After the 3 hours of 'suffer', went for friday prayers, YES FRIDAY PRAYERS! Hehekz.. I went back home after that, just for an hour... Out again to study with 'the chargers' at airport then to my abang's house to return him his shirt! huh!!! I then rushed to woodlands back from tampines to catch movie with Daen... Ratatouille of wadeva it is spelled as,, was GREAT! Yarh!! Humorous with good motivational advices included... Serious.. "Not EVERYONE has the TALENT. But, the TALENT can come ANYWHERE."-quoted from the movie. Hehekz.. A theme of self-belief and gutts is potrayed in the movie. Lolx.. It is a MUST WATCH rated! lolx... Thanx to Daen for the treat!
By the way, there's a scene where there's an alien. When he smiles or the merajok face, it was exactly the way YOU always do! Cute! Serious... Exactly the same... With your wide sweet smile... Hehekz... In conclusion, YOU look like an ALIEN! Thus, I'm in LOVE with an ALIEN! lolx.. bluekz!
To and fro woodlands interchange, was hoping to bump onto you but didnt. Fated i guess. Fated to never meet again?? Haish... And if i always tell you to priorotise, now is the time for me to.. My priority is my O'levels... There's only one month left for me to have the final lap.. It is Tough! Lolx...
Alright, time to sleep. Hope to see you in my dream yeah?? Yes YOU! The one that cant live without his ego and .... yarh ego only i guess... hehekz... Muackiesz!! I hope you know thta i am talking about you.. Nitez!!!
dA'Ruth
yes you D,
Saturday, September 08, 2007
KESAL
Terkadang masa menikam dan terus berlalu pergi...
Meninggal kan sisa dan membuka seribu luka di hati...
Walau ku cuba hindarkan sesal di dada...
Kesilapan lalu menghantui diri ku...
Segala yang indah sering menemani ruang sepi ku...
Senyum dan tawa mu masih jelas terbayang di mata ku...
Kini semuanya menjadi kenangan silam...
Sesal hati dirundung kecewa...
Aku tak pernah menduga...
Begini hebatnya duka lara bila berakhirnya cinta...
Mengapa sukar untuk ku melupakan mu...
Namun mudahnya kau membenci diri ini...
Apalah gunanya ku terus mencari kesilapan diri...
Sedang kau tak pernah ingin mengerti perasaan di hati...
Pernah kah kau rasa hangatnya genangan...
Air mataku yang tak mungkin mengalir...
Sungguh aku tak pernah mengerti...
Mengapa semua harus begini
Seribu luka... kesal dihati...
Betapa ku kesal... biar ku... sendiri...
Didedikasikan kepada Sayyidi.
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
Very Last Words
Tears are in my eyes and yet you are still asking about his friendster? We were talking about us. In fact, I was the only one taking this relationship seriously. Not you. I was like telling you about whats gonna happen to both of us, and you said nothing about it. How could you? Dont you ever bother about me? Okay, not me but at least our friendship. You were lik so desperate to view his friendster? OMG! He is so damn effing straight! Please, i am damn serious in this matter while you take this things so lightly. And you still pleading me to know his friendster. Haish.. Wont you say anything about us now?? We are going to go on our seperate ways. This time, i will really walk the talk. I was terribly shocked! And there you go pleading me again.
As for now, i really hope one day you will understand my feelings towards you. Not just understand but appreciate at least. Thanx alot to SAYYIDI. Yes i am telling the whole world and this is my blog. So yarhs... No use to be waiting for the one that will never appear. If it does, it will be a miracle or just a dream....
I will never be into any relationships with guys till i get you as mine. -mark them.
dA'Ruth
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
To 'di' in the tagboard,, are you really sayyidi or just anyone else??
Anyways,,
Since when i didnt appreciate the person by the name Sayyidi????
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
MTV UNSUNG HERO @ MOS
Media Pass
Ridiculous?? Lolx...
Cranberry VODKA was the Sinful one!!
I dont even knw what they have given me... Just ate 'em! lolx..
MTV UNSUNG HERO @ MOS!!!
Ouh Emm Gee!!! It was effing Fun larh shey!! The Press send me to M.O.S. to do a coverage on MTV Unsung Hero! I went there alone larh shey! Frankly i dont know what shit are they d0ing there... I just enjoyed myself drinking coz it was free... I was served by the people there, got seated in the VIP corner where all the media press etc people were sitting there.. FYI, it was not an underage party and!! i was the youngest over there! lolx.. Coke Vodka, Cranberry Vodka, Tiger, Wine, Whiskey etc, i drank all and got drunk abit... It was damn effing Free - Flow... Additional of Damn Effing HOT Stuffs there!! lolx... We are served with so many food.. one after another.. i was full serious.. I drank three bottles of Tiger.. lolx.. I dodnt go really drunk corz, i didnt smoke, not even a puff the whole day!! Lolx... The funny thing is, i went out carrying a half fulled Tiger with me ang got caught. lolx.. Paiseh Sia... hehekz.. anyways, i enjoyed alot!!
Sunday, September 02, 2007
Teacher's Day Celebration At JYSS
Miss Christina Lin!!! Iqbal and Ruth
The Presenters for Torch Award!
Willy Wonka & Neutrogena Winner
Teacher's Day Celebration @ JYSS
It was superb coz i've been selected to be the presenters for the award giving to the teachers. I and Yuzil were asssigned to present the Funny Bone Award. There are also, Willy Wonka Award, Teddy Bear Award, Junyuan Hunk Award etc. Lolx.. Luckily, mine was among the best ones... At last there was an applause when we came out. The theme of this post was that i wore a WIG!!! in school! Throughout the celebration.. Hehekz... Okay,, btw there will be another write up from me at BERITA HARIAN this monday! Must BUY! hehekz.. To all the teachers, Happy Teachers' Day!!!
Sunday, September 02, 2007
MTV UNSUNG HERO @ MOS
Ridiculous?? Lolx...
Cranberry VODKA was the Sinful one!!
The Presenters for Torch Award!
