Underappreciated by me.
Yes, i'm underappreciating you. The past few months when we were close together, hanging aroung with each other, calling all night on the phone yet why I cant just thought that cycle couldnt last forever? Why am i just letting it go? Why didnt i think that sweet times would leave just like that? Now i came to realised that i'm underappreciating you last time. I'm loving you but frankly, I'm not afraid that i would lose you, no, not lose you but I didnt think of you leaving me. I'm acting as though you would be mine forever and nobody will take you from me.
And see now what had happened and it is still happening, to me, only to myslef. I admit that I didnt appreciate every single thing that you did for me, as you said. Now then it has come to me. Flashing back all the things i ought to do just for you, perhaps for our relationship. I know its hard for you now. Its hard for you to flush all the 'yesterday' episodes just like that. It takes time, a very long time. And yarh, i will never be bored waiting. Trust me.
"My time and your time is over"-quoted from yourself. It may be true but i believe in second chances and one day we will be together.
However, if that girl seems to be able to make you happy and smile, I shall step backward. If you really love her, then go for it. What are you waiting for? Although it really hurts inside, I promise to be supporting you Di, no matter what happens. I know, you are with that girl and i wouldnt get anythning but, at least, I think, I've done my part and hopefully, I'll be sharing both of your happiness.
And my prayers are that you are being able to see my sacrifices towards reaching our love Di.
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ps: If you really insist to go out in a group, then just forget about it. I just want to spend time with you.
Wednesday, November 28, 2007