Not Drawn By Me But Ruth

2008-08-16T15:24:00.006+08:00

FIESTARI 2008

@ Chengsan CC

On 12th July 2008, another history has been made. Cheyy.. Hahakz.. Indra Nila Kirana participated in a Malay Dance Competition, FIESTARI . That was the first time NYP's malay dance group entered a dance competition. And also my debut competition!! For the few weeks of training, i almost give up to myself because i cant commit and i'm slow in getting the steps! It was very frustrating OKAY! But thanx to my friends and of course our Choreographer, Abang Ain, yang sedang meletop skrg! HAhakz.. All his words of encouragements are much appreciated. Thanx Abg Ain..

Team Fiestari!! I LURVE YOU GUYS!!!

After all the hard work and obstacles. these are the achievements made:

BEST PERFORMANCE!

BEST CHOREOGRAPHY

CHAMPION! FIRST!!!!!!!

2008-08-16T15:05:00.003+08:00

@ NYP

Gorgeous People! As you all know that I'm a full time Student Nurse now at Nanyang Polytechnic. I'm PROUD to be one but not VERY PROUD! Hahakz.. People, it is easy to get into the course but aint easy to survive there for THREE years! This is what the seniors say. I agree as the modules they teach there are the complicated ones.. Arrgghh.. So many names, processes, definitions, types, measurements etc that are needed to memorize. I have done my Clinical Assesment test where we are tested for our clinical skills.. 2 skills were tested and i failed one, NG Tube Feeding.. So I retook and yeah! Got feedback from the accessor that everything were professionally done! Yeah yeah!!! Hahakz... My classmates are all FUN and CRAZY people!! Serious!! Especially Darwin and Buvan!! All of them are nice nice one.. Hahakz... But the most closest ones are Jannah, Ninee and Hazmi.. Yeah... The very best of luck to you guys NR0812!!

"ruth awak .

2008-08-16T14:53:00.003+08:00

Alright alright people! I'm back AGAIN! or I'm BACK again!

OK forget it. First of all sorry for being M.I.A for months due to some other commitments, school and dance especially. Love life?? Hmmm.. Not really i guess...

Many things happened within these few months. I mean it A LOT! I'm not going to post each and every single one though.

Let's start with myself..

- Uncertain self-actualization

- Undone matches with people at home
- Incomplete love story

Let's end with myself.

- Still neither here nor there .

"ruth awak .

2008-04-23T23:11:00.002+08:00

Back to SCHOOL!!!

Ruth is back!!! Arent you guys like happy??

Coz i am! haakz... School has resumed! At last i am schooling.. To my fellow folks who dont know where am i schooling yet, let me tell u guys.. Hmm.. Currently i am proud to be one of the Student Nurse in Nanyang Polytechnic! Hahakz.. Yeah2, Diploma in Nursing! It is so interesting. I look forward for each and every day, for different reasons i guess. Hahakz... There was a problem during my orientation. My name could not be found on the list. Well.. Expected.. So, i have no group or class at that time and all the 'Lost Sheeps' formed Group 29! And we came in 2nd for CHEER!! Hahakz... My very first so called friends that i have made is Zainal and Izzat. They are cool.. But Not those typical MATs!!

On the first day of school, the 'Lost Sheeps' met again to go to the office to double check our permanant groups. However, it wasnt my day on that day! The staff there told me that i am not registered as a student of NYP. In my mind i was like thinking that i have no school and need to wait for the next intake! Sh*t right?!! Initially she asked me to go home. I wanted to cry actually and partly frustrated with my admission and enrolment. Heesh! So abang,, if i didnt smile at you at the bookshop, i'm sorry. It was not the perfect time to say our first "Eh, Hi!" and stuff. Hahakz.. Blah blah blah... The staff asked me to re-do my enrolment then meet the Manager and i was assigned to group 12! Hahakz...

Zainal and I ended school at the same time. No place to go so we went SHOPPING! Hahakz.. Two guys going shopping together.. Weird huh?! Didnt expected that his taste and mine are about the same! hahakz.. That's cool.. So Zai, biler lagi nak g shopping??!! Hahakz...

A few days later, i went to meet my abang! Hahakz,, K, u guys wont understand. We have known each other for like almost 4 years and we only met a week ago? Dont believe me? Aahh.. Hehekz.. Klah, i dont want to talk about this much coz i think, i will have one special post for him. Coming soon!!

Till here.... Bye!! Much love to you folks!!

2008-03-16T21:40:00.002+08:00

_______________________.

It has been a vey long time since my last post and I dont know where to start now, or how. I thought i am done with it and him. Unfortunately, i'm wrong. It's hard when both of us are close together by seeing each other everyday and it is even harder when we are far apart. One year has past. and the beautiful disaster is still rolling over and over. Sometimes i just thought that the story is not logic!

I want to be with you. That's all i want to do. I'm only 17 and many said that it is time to enjoy. But i dont want that. Why is it hard for you to understand me? Why is it hard for everyone to do so? I may have my ego and same goes to you. I'm trying hard to change myself. But have you noticed it? Yeah, i admit that i may be unreasonable at times. Talking about appreaciating. Did you ever felt thankful to be a friend of mine at least?? Answer this to yourself honestly.

Why cant i smile whenever i walk away after meeting you?
Why cant i look into your eyes whenever you say 'hi' or 'bye' to me?
Why are there others around with us while i only want to spend time wth you?
Why cant i be the one to talk to you on the phone at night?
Why cant i be the first person to hear your laughter whenever you have something good to tell?
Why am i not the one whom can listen to your heart?
Why am i not the person whom you love?

Have you ever wonder why i keep looking at your eyes while you are talking to your friends or looking somewhere else and i know you noticed it?
Have you ever wonder why the word 'Asal?' or 'Awak OK ke tak?' keep coming out from my mouth?
Have you ever wonder why i keep asking you not to walk so fast?
Have you ever wonder why i keep quiet whenever you are talking with your friends?
Have you ever wonder why do i always ask you to hang up the phone first before me?
Have you ever wonder why i didnt make any move unless you cant be seen whenever you are going back home?
Have you ever think who i am inside?

If only i could see your smile and your bucked tooth everyday.
If only i could hug you whenever i meet you.
If only you could hold my hand firmly before saying goodbye.
If only you trust my words and have faith in me.
If only YOU LOVE ME.

Remember this, I will always be waiting for you.

Shahrul.

2008-02-14T00:58:00.002+08:00

I AM VERY TIRED!!!

..Updating Soon..

Shahrul aka Ruth

2008-01-17T02:01:00.000+08:00

Kirana Seni @ Kampung Glam

On the 12th January 2008 was my debut performance with Kirana Seni. It was a great experience performing tarian after a very long time i've left tarian melayu. I was totally nervous before and during the performance. It went smoothly though. Alhamdulillah.. Hehekz.. Next up will be Chingay!! Support me yeah??!

2008-01-14T23:28:00.000+08:00

To Polytechnics Open Houses

Temasek Poly & Nanyang Poly.

It has been a long time since we hear each other's laughter.

When I miss SCHOOL, I miss you guys!

The 7'' Chargers

2008-01-14T22:46:00.000+08:00

Hanazakari No Kimatachi E

Starring:

Maki Horikita Ashiya Mizuki

Shun Oguri Sano Izumi

Toma Ikuta Nakatsu Suichi

Mizushima Hiro Nanba Minami

Horikita plays the protagonist Ashiya Mizuki, a Japanese girl in the U.S. who one day sees the young athlete Sano Izumi (Oguri) compete in the high jump on television. She begins to idolize him, and decides to move to Japan to attend the same school as him. However, Izumi goes to an all-boys school, so Mizuki disguises herself as a boy to achieve her dream of being with her idol. At the middle of the story, Mizuki, Sano and Nakatsu share the same room as one of the dorm in the school needs to close down. They become very close and care for each other especially Nakatsu who falls in love with Mizuki. Nakatsu initially thought that the feeling will not last long as Mizuki is a 'guy' and guys cannot fall in love with each other. Till at a point of time, he claims that he do not mind being a homosexual as he really falls for Mizuki. Nakatsu plays a role of a comic relief to the story. This drama illustrates well about friendships, desire/determination. I cried alot at the end of the story.

Rated: MUST! Watch.

2008-01-14T22:03:00.000+08:00

Fun 2 D'MAX

Pasir Ris East CC Performance

Bursaries and Prize Giving day

2008-01-14T21:46:00.000+08:00

Countdown @ Woodlands 2008 cum Da'shocase Finals

Fun 2 D'max

6th

2007-12-29T13:11:00.000+08:00

How's my new hair??!!

Firstly went to Bugis to buy my sister her school bag. Zie accompanied my sister and i the whole day. Thanx!! Hahakz.. Then walk around to survey on the dance pants to be used for the countdown. Then went off to town. First stop at Far East Plaza. We had our lunch at Esteller. Then i went to look around for the salon that Anna recommended to me. Yah found it. IMAGE. After chosing the colour, etc, etc, it took fr about 90 mins! I took a nap for a couple of times.. HAiya!! Sorry yawl,, and thanx for waiting! hahakz.. And we were late for dance pract. Nope! After we found out that we were the first team to arrive there at the dome! Fcuk!!!

While waiting for the other members!

Besties!

My favourite Pisang Bakar W Cheese..

Me & my ADEK!

Macam cina tak aku??

Pat ni Zie mepek...

This is an ART

their things.

'ruth

2007-12-23T23:24:00.000+08:00

Kelab Ungu''

After meeting da'Gerls!, i went to meet Along and Ajem. They are so called my Pakciks...

- Starbucks

-Camwhoring @ Ochard Road

-Esteller

-See Kambings @ Darul Ghufran

(used to be my 2nd home. hehekz)

A Day with my bestie, Esah and Aziqa!

Initially we planned out a Charger's Day Out but then some of us were busy so yarh, left Aishah, Aziqa and I. We went to Ramen Ten! We had our lunch there. ps. It was my first time eating at Ramen Ten. Delicious bebeh! Hakz... I ate the Spicy Lala Ramen!! Slluurppp!! One is never enough! Then we just walked around the malls etc. and bought some shirts and a bag!!

Wednesday, 19 December 2007

2007-12-23T22:55:00.000+08:00

Images are louder than words.

- Punggol Secondary School

- Starry Starry Night @ Kovan

(Childcare Centre)

- Lepak at Merlion (Esplanade)

- Friday, 14 December 2007

2007-12-12T14:09:00.000+08:00

*shahrul*

2007-12-12T13:47:00.000+08:00

...........

At last! Today is my off day! It has been a very though week for me these couple of weeks. Firstly, my work and my dance. I am now working at Sentosa under retail department! It is cool, really.... Hahas... For now, I am posted to Quatermaster Shop which is located at Fort Siloso where not many people come to visit. So, there will be only like 80 guests who visit each day at that shop. However, my problem now is, i never came on time for work. Never. Hahas... The reasons are, i'm still unsure to estimate my travelling time to and fro, and i'm still not familiar with the place around(what bus to take etc.). Hahakz.... Bluekz!!

The shop closes at 630, and sometimes i will be sent to Oscar & Co. Shop at Songs of the Sea to do baskering. IT IS DAMN FUN!!! Hahakz... On Monday, it was raining in the evening. Guests who would be watching the SOS rushed to get a raincoat or umbrella to the shop. TILL THE UMBRELLAS+PONCHOS+RAINCOATS WERE ALL SOLD OUT even before the first show started!!!! My IC odered me to go to IOS Shop to carry some stocks in. Hahakz... And guess what, for less than half an hour, we made about $1500 for just selling raincoats.. A big contrast where the sales at Quatermaster is usually only $250 per whole day. How pathetic! hahas....

Whatever it is, i really enjoy my work! :)

Next! F2DM!! We've made it to the finals! Congratulations to all of you and the other finalists!

*shahrul*

2007-12-08T10:28:00.000+08:00

As from now, i need to be careful of wat i am posting here. I was warned not to post anything that is related to him. Fine. To guys out there, if you know, you know, if you dont then just forget it.

To that party whom has been the 'evil' since the start and i have no idea who, I am still finding my sins to you. I find it hard to accept this. Very hard. What did i do to deserve this. Haish... I hope you are able to forgive all my mistakes to you. Thousands apologies.

I promise this will be the last post I'm going to talk about him, D'.

I know all the perfumes of Arabia will not clear all the unpleasantness of us.

The more i'm with you, the lesser you are.

Thee are and the only thee,

My sweet remembrancer.

Goodbye.

Ruth'D

2007-12-05T00:45:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry i cant update my blog, could not even think.

For whatever reason i cant stop crying.

I have no idea why.

I'm feeling very down these few days.

Very down.

Something will make me feel better.

I need a kiss from you.

Will you?

-Ruth'D

2007-12-02T18:04:00.000+08:00

Shahrul & Bunbun!

Saturday.

I woke up at around 4pm? Yarh... Still no signs of him. I was like very near to giving up. It was so painful to see his name not appearing on the screen. Where are you? And yarh at last, he was online. And as usual, i was the one who pm him first. Was that supposed to be? Was that the way? I dont need any explaination but at least an apology. Apology by sending a messege? How sincere could that be?!! I was expecting a call from him to have an apology to me. Yes! I do hav ehigh expectations on people i love! He ought to know me better right? He should. I dont even know what to do. I was serious online yet he was lauhing all way. I cried again. Yes, this few days and nights, i'm rich with tears. How to make him serious?!! Haish... Thanx Aza for being there for me. Thanx for accompanying me to Esplanade too... :)

Yes, when i was reaching to esplanade, my heart was pumping so fast. I was afraid if he is not going to talk to me or even look at me! As what he had done before. What did i do wrong? I have no idea myself.

And at last, there you are.. I wanted to look up to your face but just that my nerves dont allow me to. It was funny though.. I was smiling looking at him. Almost two months we didnt meet each other and at last! Hahakz.. I was laughing out loud in my heart! I got to see him again! I wanted to hug him but i know he wouldnt like it, though if its going to be a friends hug.. Its okay.

To Di, I hope you love that little token of appreciation from me to you. I know that cant even clear all the my sins to you. And that thing will signify the starting of a fresh friendship with you. I dont want you to even remember the past. Please. So now, we are not in twos anymore, We have our new friend, Bunbun. Hehekz... Chayunk awak!

dA'Ruth

2007-12-02T17:03:00.000+08:00

FRIDAY!

Let me start with Friday. As planned, i was supposed to meet Saydi at 3pm. Then he asked to extant the timing because he needs to follow his parents for awhile. So yarh, i just went out first, alone while waiting for him. It was almost 6 and i still didnt hear anything from him, not even a messege. Luckily Anna & Co. was there to accompany me. Thanx all! We all went to eat at LJS at Cineleisure. && Anna, remember that cute guy??!! He smiled at me and say goodbye to me??!!! Cair siak aku!!! Hahakz... Kk, I was abit worried if the whole thing was cancelled and in the end, it was. Anna & Co. and I went to Starbucks at WheelockHaish... I was totally pissed of with him lar.. Waiting for him for like hours!! okay, cut it off larh. At night went to Zie's sister's house to celebrate Fariz's birthday. & Cut short! Hahakz...

&& Btw, that was the very first day i put on Skinny Jeans! Scared luh if it doesnt suit me well...

The girls who accompanied me when YOU didnt turn up....

Me With the Birthday Boy!!! :)

-i have waited for you like a fool, you didnt think of me for just a second? is it hard for just to give me a call? please, i beg you, not to do that again. Thanx!

dA'Ruth

2007-11-30T00:41:00.000+08:00

The Charger's Day Out.

Before meeting my lovely Chargers, I went for an assigment at the Singapore National Museum about the 'Malay Companion' that has just been launched last week.

I met my Chargers at Plaza Singapura at around 1pm. There were on time! Hahakz... It has been such a long time since we last meet. Everyone was there except Charger herself. Rabak ar lu! First of all, we went to book the movie ticket. Yarh, i was just saying 'anything' to what movie they wanna catch. We still had like 1 hour before the show starts so we all went for lunch at Burger King.

After that we went up again to enter the cinema. Thanks ekh korg, it was a horror movie, Tattoist. Hahakz... We were the first group to enter the cinema. So yarh, Happy like never before arh them.... The rows infront were occupied by 'matreps'... 'coupling,coupling'.. Ewww!! Jealous argh!!! Overall the movie was cool.. I will rate 3.5 out of 5 for the show.

After the movie, we bought Missy Doughnuts which is only have an average taste, yarh. Not that nice larh... Munchie's is still the 'kick' to me larh!! Hehekz...

After indulging the doughnuts, Aziqa made her move to Kak Girl's house i supposed. The 5 of us left made our way to esplande, walking....

We walked passed the Arts Museum....

Then we continue walking while snaping lots of snapshots...

Then down to the Gallery Hall Walkway at Esplanade

We then lepak at the Rooftop then at the Bay then to Peninsula. SHOPPING!!! I bought my first ever skinny jeans! Hahakz.. A plain T-shirt and a pair of sneakers... Hahakz...

And here is the picture of the day!!!

Just bought it just now!

The End.

'meeting him tmr! yeahNess! hope it will turn out great!'

dA'Ruth

2007-11-28T02:46:00.000+08:00

To Di'....

You are finer
You are sweeter
You are never naive yet matured
I'm still waiting the words from your mouth
I also can sense the spark
But why dont you wanna be into me?
I'm seriously seeking true love from you
You can start meeting me everyday
Coz you can be my only one.

You tell me when you are not alright.
When you are not ok.
I will make you feel better
I willl say alright
I will say ok
And I will stick with you through whatever
And never run away.

When I call you, let's talk about us
I'm not like any others who just playing with words.
I'm not shy as i'm honest.
But still why dont you wanna be into me?
I will forever treat you the right way
Whenever i'm beside you,
I will make your heart feel safe within me.

It's gonna be me
And the way is to prove and i'm doing it
I will keep you safe in my heart
And dont think that i will again run away
I will call you whenever you need me
I will help you shine everyday
I promise to wipe your tears away
And hold you closer with me

From; Ruth

2007-11-28T02:15:00.000+08:00

Underappreciated by me.

Yes, i'm underappreciating you. The past few months when we were close together, hanging aroung with each other, calling all night on the phone yet why I cant just thought that cycle couldnt last forever? Why am i just letting it go? Why didnt i think that sweet times would leave just like that? Now i came to realised that i'm underappreciating you last time. I'm loving you but frankly, I'm not afraid that i would lose you, no, not lose you but I didnt think of you leaving me. I'm acting as though you would be mine forever and nobody will take you from me.

And see now what had happened and it is still happening, to me, only to myslef. I admit that I didnt appreciate every single thing that you did for me, as you said. Now then it has come to me. Flashing back all the things i ought to do just for you, perhaps for our relationship. I know its hard for you now. Its hard for you to flush all the 'yesterday' episodes just like that. It takes time, a very long time. And yarh, i will never be bored waiting. Trust me.

"My time and your time is over"-quoted from yourself. It may be true but i believe in second chances and one day we will be together.

However, if that girl seems to be able to make you happy and smile, I shall step backward. If you really love her, then go for it. What are you waiting for? Although it really hurts inside, I promise to be supporting you Di, no matter what happens. I know, you are with that girl and i wouldnt get anythning but, at least, I think, I've done my part and hopefully, I'll be sharing both of your happiness.

And my prayers are that you are being able to see my sacrifices towards reaching our love Di.

____________<3___<3___<3___<3_________________

dA'Ruth_______

ps: If you really insist to go out in a group, then just forget about it. I just want to spend time with you.

Prom Night

2007-11-23T00:26:00.000+08:00

Prom @ Marina Mandarin

Prom Night @ Marina Mandarin

2007-11-18T02:23:00.000+08:00

TPRAWKS Socks My Rocks!!

TPRAWKS was damn effing awesome! A 3 days camp + FREE registration + food provided + fun activities + making new friends. Fuiyo!! Great! I had a real serious fun there and yarh, i've almost forgotten about the day before the Day 1, someone made my tears shed again. I shall talk about that after this post.

Day 1.
I met Esah and Anati at the bustop at the main gate of TP. There were whole lot of people there... Hundreds of them!! We registered ourselves in BLUE team together with Aidil, Hafiz and Syam. Later came Charger, Jannah and Dhai. We were all in the same team. In the morning, there was a performance by some Chinese Music Group playing their big drums thingy yarh... Followed by passing the ball game, the group holding the ball when the music stops, needs to do something up on stage. 10 rawkers went up the stage and i'm the only guy. Aidil, Syam, Hafiz, u all paitau! And we need to lipsing and dance with a rock song! Not-my-type! But well, Shahrul, what do you expect, I will be supporting in everyway!! Hahakz... Then we had lucky draw... Handphones, MP4, PSP, Printer... Phew! But i didnt win any... Haha...

Then my group proceed to the Applied Science and IT block. We got to try some Biomedical stuff... Ah, its quite familiar to some of us as we took Biology, so its kinda connected. It was about enzymes andinfection of deseases... Something like that larh...

After that was lunch. There was a performance by the Drama Club and their Band. Next we went to the Design building. We gt to explore their Arts Gallery. Everything! Cool! And we got to make a spontaneous painting on a cupboard with a theme of 'Extraordinary'. Abang-abang Design not bad ekh!!! Hahakz...

Lastly, we gathered as a whole Rawkers to learn the Mass Dance and Chicky Dance... Thats the shit lar sey! Hahakz...

Day 2.
In Day 2 we got to try out the CCA offered in TP. And the first activity is we got to try out their Modern Dance/Hip-hop Group! Hahakz... Then this is my Thang!!! Hahakz.. We've learnt a 4-eights steps! Cool steps larh! I love it man! Then comes the battling part!!!!!!! Love it! Love it! Love it! Then it was lunch again! There was a performance by Korean Idol winner.. Hot larh... Can say larh... Hahakz... Next was Dragon Boating!! Blue team won as the first team to arrive in the finishing line during the race. Then there's a Captain's Ball match among the team. And YES! My team WON again! Defeating the 5 other groups! And my teamwon a cute little teddy bear each! Lastly a performance by the Cheer Leading group called hmm.. k i've forgotten... :) .. Cool... Hahakz.. Last of lal was AGAIN! the Mass Dance!! This time was better... Serious shit sia!!! AAARRRRGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!! I still can feel the groove bebeh!!

Day 3.
There was a carnival and dont know whats going on. Hahakz... The Grand Finale was damn awesome! It's the Jam & Hop!!!!! Performance by Sleeq then some rock group then the best was this another group larh... Donoe whats the name... So its like Hip Hop then Rock then like the hottest genre now larh... Entahlar.. Hahakz... We mosh?! Yes we did... You can only the malays are enthu!! HAhakz... Biaser jugak, Budak Melayu!!!! I think i was the hyperactive larh there... And i dance beside this red guy and i dont know his name. He looks like D'. Yarh... This will be mentioned again someday larh k? Hahakz... We ended the whole thing at 11pm. That as very late.. The hall turned out into a club! Hahakz.. Except theres no alcoholic drinks.. HAhakz... But, the closing ceremony can be improved larh!! :)

Overall, TPRAWKS was the SHIT man!!!!! I really urge those who are taking O levels next year to participate in TPRAWKS! Its worth your time!!

_____________________________________________

Mr Red Guy! You caught my eye boy! :)

dA'Ruth

2007-11-17T13:03:00.000+08:00

Oh Thee;
I shou' nt
speak.
Dare I nt
show.
Thee know it
thyself.
Thee believe it in
thyself.

Oh Thee;
Oh sweet
remembrancer,
O' than Thee, Only
D'.

2007-11-13T08:11:00.000+08:00

Picture Of The Month Award!
I am so in lurve with this one... Hehekz...

2007-11-13T07:32:00.000+08:00

Layer 1: On the outside
Name: Shahrul Muhaimin Bin Shahlan Shamsi
Birth date: 22 October 2007
Current Status: Single & NOT Availalble
Eye colour: Black, i think...
Hair Colour: Black, very Original...

Layer 2: On the inside
My heritage: Mother(Bouyanese) + Father(Kelantan) = Me(Boy Lantan)
My fears: When someone still does not know how much i appreciate him or her.
My weaknesses: Not easy to get over someone whom i love most.
My perfect pizza: Red Hot Chilli + Beef + Chicken Ham + Cheesy Meltz + Ice Cream???

Layer 3: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
My first thought of waking up: Should i still wait for him??
My most missed memories: Eating at Lau Pa Sat with my own family; Ayah, Ibu, Nurul and I.

Layer 4: My pick.
Pepsi or Coke: Green Tea Heaven And Earth ( Osmanthus)
Single or group dates: Single would be perfect and romantic. Group comes only for ***.
Adidas or Nike: Adike.
Vanilla or Chocolate: Chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: Kopi Cino

Layer 5: Do you?
Smoke: Only Menthol.
Do you Curse: I dont like to curse till someone really makes me red!
Take a shower: No, to conserve water as Earth is under degradation.. DUH!
Have a crush: Recently yes. Now? hmm... NO! I dont believe in crush anyways.
Go to school: Yes or else i dont even know what am i typing.
Believe in yourself: Yes. Its a VERY yes with a high self-esteem.. Not too high though...
Think you're a health freak: No. not my type of person.... haha

Layer 6: In the past
Drink alcohol: Yarh... (not proud)
Gone to the mall: Rivervale mall? Katong mall? Tampines mall? Yes!!!
Dyed your hair: Yes, only once.

Layer 7: Have you ever..?
Played a stripping game: Hahakz... no! one day we shall try...
Change who you were to fit in: Yarh, but not always...

Layer 8: Are you hoping to
Get married: Yes! I want to have children! And let me stress, My OWN children!!

Layer 9: In a partner
Best eye colour: Pink. hhakz... Any colour will do. As long as its not colourless.
Best hair colour: Dark Brown
Long or short hair: Anything that will make him POOM!

Layer 10: What were you doing?
A minute ago: Looking at my brother sleeping.
An hour ago: Walking back home from somewhere yarh...
A Month ago: It was Hari Raya!!! And at this time i was at Assyafa'ah Mosque
A Year ago: Ask the Historian.

Layer 11: Finish the sentences..
I love: Everything that makes me smile especially D'
I hide: My thoughts and miseries toward you.
I miss: My Ayah!!!
I need: A faithful and sincere relationship with you.

Layer 12:
Tag 5
The first five person to tag my board on 13th Nov after 12noon.

2007-11-11T02:17:00.000+08:00

ranD'om

Expected! Yarh... I knew this since it first started. Thank God it happened
at a short period of time. If it dragged, i will be lost and i will be
hurting myself again. The past has tought me a lesson. A great one where i can
get rid of the bad ones happening on me. I've realised that they are all just
playing with my heart. I dont really know but i just can sense it. One are just
at not the right age and the other are busy with his dance? Or maybe with his
EX's.. Yarh, perhaps. And the last one, i believe...no, i force myself to
believe that he will never accept me.

I only left with one. My only One! I hope what he had just said just now he really
meant in. I admit that i have broken his heart for so many time till i
didnt realise it. I know that i have done so may wrongs with him. Although i'm
kinda 'with' him, i still flirting with others. And please about all those nasty
naughty messeges, was only a messege and we never done it. NO! I was
only joking with him. That time
i really love you. Really, really love you. Till i put myself behind
you. Please think, how different have i treated you from the rest?? I
have even ignore my family just because of you. I know it is stupid but
i want to get you. I really need you as mine. Futhermore, that time was a
little bit shaky. NO!! VERY shaky that time... Just because of
someone... Partly
yes, my fault too...

Cant you still be
convinced how much i love you? Now i dont have anymore ideas on how to
gain that trust back from you. Its hard. I'll still try though. Really. If i have you,
i dont care if i dont get to meet my other friends one night... Yarh... I just
need you... You are making me waiting and i realy dont mind.

I really love u
d'.

2007-11-05T12:39:00.000+08:00

Reluctance.

Confuse. Confuse. Confuse. Equivocation. They come in threes. Once, Twice, Thrice. Either they are here all at once or nothing at all. I totally hate that. Fate? Faith? Haiz... I know it is kinda impossible for you to love me but i am putting the reality at the back.
It is very hard for me now. I hate making decisions. I'm indecisive. Thousands of questions strike me when you asked, any of you asked. Do i really love you? Am i worth it to be with you? Am i suitable to be with you? AArrrgghh.... It is irritating! It is. I think, to make myself, my life and my mind easier, just dont be with anyone... Is that alright? Yarh.. Be single forever. No, not forever. I know i can have him one day. Perhaps.
"So are you really into me??..." Shit! I cant answer that question of yours. I'm numb! Speechless. I wanted to say yes but was afraid of the consequences. I've learnt. Think for just a second is so much worth than talking the whole night. Can you like give me time? Yes. I just need time. Time to find the perfect one.
"I really like you larh..." Okay... I know that you have repeated that quite a couple of times. Ouh, i should say Thank You. Sorry. Now is the matter of age and maturity level. Bad things come in threes. What is fair is foul, what is foul is fair. Sometimes they are good just like the most expensive crab. At times they are just as bad as a low quality crab. CRAB!
Reluctance.
dA'Ruth
in the state of reluctance

2007-11-04T02:34:00.000+08:00

Alright!!!! Two hours of effort... Most of these photos are taken very very very long time ago.. Enjoy..

2007-11-04T01:47:00.000+08:00

2007-10-27T12:41:00.000+08:00

He's bringing the old times back!

2007-10-26T22:12:00.000+08:00

I am still SHOCKED!!! Yes, I am!!

Treat that as a gift...

At times, it was kinda weird... Till now...

But, it happens and still happening especially among us...

And yeah, someone is still being unfaithful?! OppPSS...

One is never enough! That is an equivocation...

You do not need to be backed up by someone if you are truthful...

"wah.. not bad...not bad"

The feelings are back again. And it is going to be hard for me..

Sorry Fi if i kept you waiting.. Yarh, sorry to you...

Thanx ekh Shahrul Blonde, my butt hurts...

Today I dont feel good...

Somewhere but not here....

Perhaps i can be the 1% who do it with it...

I hate that! Seriously...

Lastly, ..... seriously you are the best one sia .....

So this will be the debut post which have no tittle nor the things happened are in sequence...

Goodbye...

Shahrul Non-Blonde

2007-10-23T01:19:00.000+08:00

Appreciation for Birthday Wishers.... :)

Specially for,

Mint'z the pooh

Ayis D'ace

Furbee

Syikin Munchkins :)

idle Pleasure (birthday on a day before mine)

Kiddo

Ajem

Halawati (birthday on the same day!)

Esah

Charger

Anati

Ath

Hariza

Dj Azz

Nadia

Eeka

Anna

Shizari

Fai' (mak ayam)

Mast

Wawan

Shilla!

Syilaa

White Angel

SHAQIF

Nat-Tasha

PULchritude

EZekeILx

Aza

Harddieboi

Kemetot

Abang!!!

Makbu!!

To those who i didnt mention your name here, I'm so sorry... Thank you so much for all your wishes.. :)

To YOU, i realy appreciate that wish from you. Thanx alot.. Though i just need to put away your unsureness of it.. How could you? Haiz... Thanx alot...

Shahrul Muahaimin aka dA'Ruth

2007-10-22T00:41:00.001+08:00

I wish i was there with you.

Keep waiting.. And waiting... And waiting... And waiting... No, his name still does not appear on the screen. I still just cant believe it that he is not the first person to wish me...!!!! AargHHH... I know its stupid of me to force people just like that.. But, I just cant accept the fact!! Please, i dont want to waste anymore tears...

Ayis, you are the first to wish me but u wished me on the 21st and that is Syahril's birthday... Hahakz..

Amin!!! You are the first one! Tears of happiness came out! Hha.. Thanx Amin, you have been such a good besties for me.... And you called my hp just on the dot at 12!

Aishah, so called, you are the second person to wish me this year!! Hehekz...

Furbee, the third person, thanx... Stil waiting for the dinnes to come from you...

Syikin, you are the fourth... Hehekz.. Thanx alot.. And yes, i am 16 now... Sweet 16.. hahakz...

Kiddo, thanx, you still remember ekh... U should get me a present.. lolx..

Anati, dont expect you to messege me here.. Hahakz... Senang2 korg share duit beli kek sudah...

Halawati, who has got the same birthday as mine.. Still remember when we exchange gifts on our birthday... :)

And finally Di, yesh.. Finally... Haish.. I just felt underappreciated.

Thanx to all my folks out there!! Love all of you guys!!! Muakciesz....

2007-10-21T23:37:00.000+08:00

I cant get over you.

It is 11.37pm now. I still have not recieved any replies from him. It's expected but still i am expecting miracles to happen, ironically, i still remember he said that miracles wont happen. To me, it is possible. Anyhting can be possible.

I know it is not easy to forget the past. But it cant be in your mind for the rest of your live. There is a change in everything. You just cant assume that the history will be repeated again and i will be commiting the same mistakes again. I know you will never believe me again. NEVER! How am i to convince you that i really love you from the bottom of my heart?? And you said, u have forgiven me but you could not forget about it... Haish...

Being your bestie will make me even much more happier?? I dont think so.. You never see it and you shall never feel how i am feeling now and through out.. I've gone through alot of miseries for not being with you.. Yes, only God knows how my feelings are when i keet thinking of you..

Many of the others said that i am so foolish to go for a younger person like you. They said that you are just playing with my heart. However, i dont give an effing care about that.. I know what i am thinking and i know myself.. I know that you are the one for me... You are my only one Di...

So this year, again i will not get what i have wished for my birthday.. Unfortunately.. Haish.. This few hours made my eyes red... Tears keep coming out non stop... And its painful.. Most painful deep inside my heart... Sorry I cant continue.. Till here...

still hoping...

2007-10-20T01:00:00.000+08:00

Pictures during 1st Syawal.. Enjoy...

My Sister and I... My Cuzziesz...

Nurul & Shahrul

2007-10-19T02:39:00.000+08:00

Still remember this photo? I will keep this photo forever, just for you, as you said.

Muackiesz!!!

Yeash!! I missed you alot... And finally got to meet you just now... Thanx! Hehekz... People, you guys wanna know? He almost slipped on the mud at the same time 'melatar'! lolx... Tulah, kacau orang lagi, PENDEK!!! And i will not forget, the next time i will be seeing you... Watch out eh PENDEK!!!! Hahakz....

dA'Ruth

2007-10-19T01:47:00.000+08:00

Ujian? Nasib? Atau Takdir Semata-mata??

Banyak yang berlaku pada tahun ini. Ya, dan semuanya bukanlah perkara yang disenangi atau mudah diterima...

1) Penceraian antara Ibu dan Ayahku
2) Pernikahan Ibu bersama seorang duda
3) Kemalangan jalan raya yang menyebabkan kereta dinaiki Ibu melanggar seorang wanita sehinggakan kakinya putus.
4) Duit habuan untuk artikel-artikel Berita Harian separuhnya tidakku terima
5) Ibu dirompak semasa berada di Johor.
6) Ayahku menghilang walaupun pada bulan Syawal ini.

Aku sendiri tidak tahu mengapa aku dipilih untuk besemuka dengan perkara-perkara sebegini? Kelat rasanya jika hendak ditelan kesemuanya. Tetapi aku memaksa diriku sendiri. Jika aku gagal untuk menerima ujian ini dengan baik, adikku lagi akan berasa tidak terdaya memikul beban dengan umrur yang begitu muda.

Aku redha dengan apa yang teah terjadi lepada hidupku. Kita yang merancang, Allah yang menentukan. Aku berharap, atas segala yang berlaku, ada ikmahnya. Insyallah. Amin.

dA'Ruth

2007-10-17T07:01:00.000+08:00

(*Selamat HARI Raya Minal Aidil WALFAIZIN*)

_______________________________

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Setelah Ramadhan yang penuh dengan keberkahan berlalu, tiba pula Syawal yang mulia. Tepat juga dugaanku. Aku tidak berkesempatan untuk diketemukan dengan ayah kandungku. Apakah perasaanku yang sebenar? Aku sendiri kurang pasti akan bisikan hati kecilku. Sedih? Marah? Hampa?

Dimanakah akan ayahku beraya nanti? Bersama siapakah beliau akan beraya? Baju apakah yang akan dikenakan pada pagi Syawal hari itu, sedangkan dahulu baju-baju Hari Raya diuruskan oleh Ibu.

Dapatkah Ayah menjamu ketupat dan rendang? Kuah lodeh yang tidak pernah ketinggalan dimasak oleh Ibu atau Emak(nenekku).

Inilah kali pertama aku tidak bersalam-salaman dn bermaaf-maafan bersama ayahku di Hari Raya... Betapa janggalnya pagi Syawal itu.. Rasanya bagai tidak sempurana sufatnya di pagi Syawal jika tidak bermaafan dengan orang tuaku.

Kini, hidupku dan ayahku berlainan. Kami berdua harus mengikut arah yang toada sempadannya. Jauh.. Adakah benar jika kita tidak akan dapat bersua muka lagi? Adakah Ramadhan itu adalah kali terakhir aku dapat mendengar suaramu? TIDAK! Aku masih belum bersedia untuk menerima hakikat seberat ini. Aku masih kecil lagi. Tidak terdaya untukku melawan arus realiti sekarang.

Dewasa ini, aku hanya harus tabahkan hati. Aku juga kerap terfikir tentang perasaan adikku yang malah lebih rapat dengan ayahku. Dialah yang sangat disayangi dan dimanjai ayah..

Aku hanya berharap agar ayah sedang selamat sekarang. Amin. Memang benar yang abang merindui ayah.

___________________________Shahrul Muhaimin Bin Shahlan Shamsi

2007-10-07T06:27:00.000+08:00

Ali POM!!!!

Hahakz.... Its 6.28 now.. Just came back from 'titanic'... Freshness, just finish bathing... One word, The BEST!!! It was fun larh just now... The theme was Ali Pom!! We played various types of games in one night! Hahakz...

First, we played Ali POM! Gerek la sey! The first round of the game as in before we pause the game, ahakz, I never kena o be the Ali Pom... This is what we call pro... Ruth mah... Now, my feets are hurting. I didnt put on any slippers or shoes.. I was barefooted and yes, Damn Painful... But, i dont care.. The fun came first! Btw, there were only one girl playing, which is Mast but, could only hear women's voices shouting and yelling... Hahakz... And also, there was alot of teamwork going on! Especially Daymie!!! So called The 'Man' larh... Hahakz... && Yarh, the funny thing was, I ran out from the place i hide to kick the bottle coz i heard 'POM' from Mast... Kononya wanted to save someone larh which i was unsure of.. But, hahakz... Mast have not put the bottle yet... And dengan semangatnyer I ran out to kick the bottle!!! Get it?? If you dont, its ok... Hhakz...

Then we played 'Dog n Bone'.. Childish game? Hahakz... Daymie was the 'MAN' again! He is a fast runner. But i will be faster than him if i were to have my shoes put on! Hakz... Second round, BONDAGE won! Hahakz... Go BONDAGE!!!

Next, the Treasure Hunt.... But only played once... Hakim was the one who hide the things... One of his clue was, "You can buy something from it and put money inside before that." If you guys know the ans, tag me please... Hakz...

Then we played, Ice and Water!! Hahakz... bla..bla..bla..bla..bla... (tired to type) .. bla...bla..bla...

Lastly, Police and Thief with the cards... The blink-blink thingy... Hahakz...

Mast: We can still play a round of Taiti while she was getting the bottle...
Ayul: The who suicide himself!! ... Sempat buat Floorwork.. Hakz...
Daymie: The 'MAN'. And i can still remeber your face when ou were about to fall when Ayul pushed you..
Fi: People hardly POM him as people thought he was the lampost... oOPs...
Mazlan: Must go and take course to play 'Police and Thief' ...
Hakim: The best bottle kicker....
Haikal: The brainstormer... Came out with strategies...

Aaah... Sorry ah.. Serious it was damn Fun but when you read here will be kinda boring.. Coz, i'm slepy and tired... Be going to Johore soon... Very soon.. Hahakz...

Klah, wanna sleep awhile... Bye...

dA'ruth

2007-10-05T00:32:00.000+08:00

Guy And Guy Relationships Are Based Only on SEX!

I've never liked relationships between guy and guy. So there is no true love or because of sex to me. -Ath

Any other relationships also could happen because of one's sexual needs. However like any other relationships,homosexual could also based on true love. -Aishah

Rubbish lah! I think it's based on love than sex. - Felina

Depends on the couples. If they are bonded together because of sex, then it is all sex for them. If it is because of mutual understanding and knowing of love, then it is love. But it takes one minute to love, but it takes years to know what is love. -Daen

Gay love? It all depends on individual but life has proven that 90% of gays are going for sex.. But definitely not all... -Yenny

Different opinions from 5 of my friends about Gay Relationships... You guys have some views or comment about this matter?? Tag my blog or SMS or email me at ruth_antihypcritez@hotmail.com

Thank You!
dA'Ruth

2007-10-03T14:17:00.000+08:00

4E1- Charges Club 7

For sure i am gonna miss u guys especially the 6 Chargers!! For all this while, we have been very close right? I hope this friendship shall last forever although we have graduated into different schools... :) This whole year of 2007 is very meaningful to me and the 6 of you are the ones who mada it meaningful to me... We have about two weeks left to O levels.. This will be our very last lap.. So, 110% effort needed!! Dont care about Raya! Seriously i have no mood to Raya.. I thought its still far away to Raya.. Hahakz.. 10 days left? OMG! hahakz...

Aishah: If you didnt do very well in your O levels, i know at least you have done your best Just dont regret.

Nadia: I believe you can do it girl! Hahakz... And i shal not forget about all the jokes of yours that made us laugh like mad!

Felina: You want your face to be inside the newspaper? For getting the best results??? You believe? Yes, YOU WILL!!!!

Anati: If you think your situation is very bad, others have more difficulties communicating with their family. So, please dont let the problem affects your studies. Dont care about what they are going to say. Just do what you think its right....

Aziqa: Yo..yo DJ Azz.... My Sister of Islam! hahakz... Such a discipline gerl definitely obtain good results larh!! All the best!

Charger: So you are entering the same school together with him next year?? Hahakz... Charger, PRIORITISE!!! hahakz..

Charges Club 7 : All the very best for your O levels. We shall make sure that no one gets into ITE! We shall help each other in this k? PROMISE???

I want to talk about what happened on monday!! Lolx... While we are having free periods for PE if i'm not wrong, the whole class was busy chatting... This SEXY Diana Choo went to untie Feline's *** ! It was so funny. And Felina was like covering it with her hands and could not move... Nadia was so excited sak! lolx... I donoe why... Everyone was laughing at her.... Then she wen to adjust larh in the tolet i supposed! Bluekz!!!

We planned to go for night study on monday.. Felina, Anati and Aziqa went home first.. Left me and Esah in school.. At 530 we left our bags in school to go look for food for buka puasa... I bought Shabsuka a 940 then meet the rest at Macdonalds... Went back to school... And we saw that the gate was locked and the school was empty... MY BAG IS INSIDE!!!!!! We panic! Hahakz... We went to the resident's corner under a block nearby to break fast.. Good larh, I wnet home without my school bag... And it has been two days i didnt go school.. GEREK LAR SEH!!! hahakz...

dA'Ruth

2007-09-30T02:11:00.000+08:00

Friday the 27th

We went to have mass iftar at Sawan's house.. Thanx to him larh.. Her mum's chicken rice was great! Serious! But it would be better if there is a honer bbq chicken wings, some cheesy sausages, ice jelly cocktail, air kathira, any ice cream deserts, hawaiian pizza, lagsania... yarh.. I think that should make the iftar a superb one... Hehekz... Memaen jer... Shahrul BA"ALWI arrived late.. Hakz.. After that, as all of them were craving for Munchie's, so we headed to Causeway Point... Yarh... Ayul, Shahrul, Yenny and I shared to buy a dozen of them. As u guys know we are all the kecohrable people.. So wad do eu expect?! We have the young at heart blood! hahakz.... And now comes the theme of the day....

Adalah satu makcik bertudung (alhamdulillah). There are some of us like so excited seeing the doughnuts... They were jumping etc. I said, "Korg ni mcm uncivilise larh... hahakz..." in a joking manner... After a few minutes, i heard this makcik said " Ni budak2 takder discipline punye rorang..." I kept quiet. I thought she will just say it once. But, after a few minutes... She went again.. Critisizing or badmouthing us!!! I told yenny.. I cant tahan sia like this... I look at her, HUH!!! And, i say it all out loudly , "MAKCIK NI BULAN PUASA BUAT DOSA JER!! Hahakz.. I hope she heard that.. Geram sak.... Makcik g bukak tudung sua.. Jaga tu mulut... jgn kasi org dengar, suara tu aurat.. Yang makcik g beratur kat sini uat per?? Kan lagi bagus berdiri menunaikan terawih 20 rakaat??!!! AARRRGH!!!! Geram beta!!

Luckily i have my Munchie's with me.. Hehekz...

Regarding the previous post: I dont expect people to cry after reading the post. Sorry to make u cry till u hate me. Hehekz... Its a true story of me though... I hope everyone understands my current situation now.. AND please, i am not asking for any sympathy... Thanx!

dA'Ruth

2007-09-28T02:58:00.000+08:00

Kekurangan pada Ramadhan tahun ini.

Memang berlainan sekali semangat menyambut Ramadhan tahun ini dengan tahun-tahun sebelumnya. Tanpa sangsi memang aku percaya ada kekurangannya kali ini. Banyak yang telah berlaku hingga menyebabkan Ramadhan kali ini yang paling 'muram' buat diriku. Bohonglah aku jika aku mengatakan bahawa aku amat riang pada Ramadhan ini. Memanglah gembira kerana bulan ini amat bermakna dan mempunyai kelebihannya.

Apakah perasaan seorang anak yang tidak dapat berbuka puasa dengan ayahnya pada tahun ini? Apakah perasaaan seorang anak itu apabila berjumpa dengan ayahnya hanya sekali di bulan Ramadhan ini? Apakah yang ayah sajikan untuk berbuka? Siapakah yang memasakkan untuk ayah untuk sahur nanti? Soalan-soalan seperti ini sering bermain di dalam cawan fikirinku. Aku hanya berkesempatan sekali sahaja untuk berbuka bersama ayahku. Ayahku kini jauh dari sisiku. Mencium tangannya sebelum ke sekolah? Ah, selalu jumpanya di rumah. Memberitahunya sebelum keluar rumah? Jumpa juga nanti di rumah. Hari-hari akan kutemui ayahku. Namun begitu, itu dahulu. Kini memang aku merinduinya. Sangat merinduinya. Baru aku sedar wujudnya kasih sayang di antara ayah dan seorang anak. Baru kini kusedari bahawa buat apa hendak dimalukan jika seorang anak yang sebaya dengan aku ini mencium tangan ayahnya sebelum ke sekolah. Aku pelik. Mengapa ramai di luar sana yang hampir segan mencium pipi ayahnya sendiri di khalayak ramai ataupun di rumah sekalipun? Dewasa ini, ingin sekali aku mencium dan mendakap ayahku setiap hari. Ini hanya akan berlaku jika berkesempatan. Tidak seperti sekarang. Semuanya telah berubah.

Dengan sendirinya aku terfikir. Mengapakah aku dipilih untuk menghadapi segala onak dan duri hidup pada usia sesingkat aku ini?? Mengapa aku yang harus menempuh segala penderitaan emosi? Terlalu banyak perkara yang harus aku selesaikan. Keluarga, sekolah dan perhubunganku bersama kawan-kawan. Aku tahu untuk tidak mencampuradukkan masalah-masalah sedemikian. Walaubagaimanapun, itulah kelemahan diriku.

Aku ketawa, senyum dan bergurau di hadapan rakan-rakanku. Tetapi tahukah mereka betapa peritnya untuk aku menelan segala hempedu yang diberikan? Aku tidak pernah menunjukkan kepada mereka. Aku tidak rasa aku sudah matang dengan fatamorgana dunia di luar sana. Aku masih seorang budak kecil yang berumur 16 tahun dan yang masih lagi belum mahir dengan dunia sebenarnya. Tambahan lagi dengan keraguanku pada diriku sendiri.

Aku rindu keluargaku! Rindu sebuah keluarga yang telah mangasuhku hingga dewasa. Walaupun rumahtangga yang porak-peranda, sering bertengkar, pernah sesekali membenci kedua orang tuaku, yang juga pernah bersikap biadap dengan mereka, namun, merekalah keluargaku yang sebenar. Keluarga yang hadir sekali seumur hidup. Nenek dan datukku yang sudahpun selesa dipanggil 'mak' dan 'bak' telah pun bermastautin ke kampung. Lagilah jarang aku menemui mereka.

Ramadhan kali ini adalah yang paling bermakna buat diriku. Ini kerana perbezaannya yang amat ketara. Aku tidak lagi bersama keluargaku. Aku hanya bersama dengan ibuku dan adik perempuanku dan itu bukan keluarga. Definisi

KELUARGA bagiku adalah, Ibu, Ayah, Adikku dan Dirku sendiri.

"Ayah, walaupun abang jarang cium tangan ayah atau tak pernah sekalipun peluk ayah, jangan sangka yang abang tak pernah terniat pun nak lakukan itu semua. Abang memang nak sangat dakap ayah tapi memang abang rasa janggal sekali. Akhir kata, Abang sangat rindukan ayah dan abang betol sayangkan ayah"

"Janganlah sesekali perasaan malu itu wujud dalam diri kita untuk memeluk ataupun memberitahu mereka betapa sayangnya kita kepada mereka."

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2007-09-23T13:46:00.000+08:00

Friday

It was the last paper of prelims. *sigh* Its an hour paper only. The time journey to school is much more longer than the time i spent in school that day. Started at 730 and ended at 830. After my classmates have got no plans. We didnt want to go home as it is still early. VERY! Wanted to watch movie. Hairspray! AGAIN for some of them. Unfortunately, the movie has ended! zzzzzz.... So we took neoprints! Hahakz... Fun larh!! I took 168 home and yarh was kinda late.. I rushed home coz need to go for Friday prayers... I went to An-Nur. Ya Allah, its damn crowded... Its a small mosque.. so yarh... Hakz... (pergi solat jumaat bukan dapat pahala bnyk tapi dosa plak! sebab, banyak yang hensem2 seh! Astaghfirullah....)

Saturday

I was assigned to cover Ramadhan Rox today. I must be there at around 4? Yah, and i reached there at almost 5 i guess... I was like so mad larh, damn that day! SEAN AH!!!! First, i took 168, it was damn slow... till in the middle of expressway of SLE, it stopped... Then reverse.. Repeatedly for so many times... I was like wth... The aircon was off.. After about 10 mins, we need to alight. The bus brokedown. We need to transfer to another bus IN THE MIDDLE O EXPRESSWAY!!! It was an experience though... Lolx... Then when it reached to TPE after Punggol flyover, the trafic was not moving AT ALL!!! There was a lane which was closed... So the traffic was very slow, if i were to walk to Tampines, i will reach ferst! Haiya....

Ramadhan Rox is at Changi Adventure Club. Its isolated! Hurhur... Not boring larh coz got so many 'barang baik' there! lolx...

After iftar, my brother picked me up and went to Vivo.. Bought some stuff there then headed to Arab St. We had Arab Mint Tea, Hummus and of course, Shissha!!!! We sat there for hours!!! Lolx...

For you,

define BESTIES for me please.

dA'Ruth

what is besties to you?

2007-09-17T14:02:00.000+08:00

Amerie & Chris Daughtry

Wokay I'm back!!! Hehekz. Sorry for not updating for quite sometime.. I've benn really busy with Prelims and stuff... sigh! Am i ready for O's?? I should ask that for myself... I know, I am not! Hahakz... blah...blah...blah...

Last Friday, Berita Harian sent me to intervew a celebrity, half Korean and half African, AMERIE!!! Do you guys no her?? Her skin is tanned, doesnt look like any Korean child... Lolx.. Yarh! She looks like Rihanna with Beyonce's skin! lolx... She is a very nice girl though... Very the mommy's daughter as in always obey her mum.. She could only go out on Fridays while the other days need to be at home and study.. Only 15 mins given to make phone calls except for study matters... This is when she was in the University... Yarh, Around 20 years old?? hehekz...

This Wednesday, I will be interviewing Chris Daughtry!!! He was from American Idol top 3 i guess.. yarh... Anyone wants to follow me?? Hehekz... BLuekz!!! Felina,, too bad!

I think thats all larh... Need to start my revision now... Take caire people!!!

PS; to my bestie, thanx for the words yesterday, really appreciated.. :)

; WAWAN!!! WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN???????

dA'Ruth

2007-09-10T02:05:00.000+08:00

Saturday & Sundaes!!!

I woke up at 530 am on saturday. Just had a few hours of sleep. I need to report at 730 am at Singapore Press Holdings. Theres a function, Forum Guru held there for malay techers in Singapore. My job there was only to help with the OBOR booth but thanx to Wawan ekh for not turning up last minute and i need to replace you for the Sajak Recitation. Thanx ekh! Lolx.. Luckily it runs smoothly although that was my first time reciting a Sajak in front of public.. Lolx... Got many praises though. :) Aziqa and Aishah was there. Brought them to have a tour at SPH, Berita Harian Office (my future office) etc. At 1200, Aishah, Aziqa and i rushed to Darul Ihsan for hosting in Bursuries Presentation. We reached there at 1245??? And the function starts at 3!!! We were damn effing early larh!! Ps: Aishah, air katira die POWER GILER beb!!! lolx..

After that, we proceed to Bugis to have our lunch at Banquet at Raffles Hosp. Initially we planned to go to Harbout Front but it was kinda too far. After that, we took the same bus 21. Aishah and Aziqa heading home and i would be alighting at Geylang there. I went to sleep before that i asked them to wake me up when reaching o my stop.

In the bus;

"Esa, Aziq, kejut aku kalau dah sampai daerah Geylang tau.. aku nak tido jap..."

"Ah yelah-yelah.."

When i opened my eyes, I AM ALREADY AT MARINE PARASE ENTERING TO BEDOK!!!!!!!!!!!! You know what? Esah n Aziq were also sleeping.. Still sleeping when i woke up... Gone CASE! Then i alighted at Tanah Merah and took train to Paya Lebar.

I went to Kampun Melayu for the Lighting Up Of Hari Raya Lights Ceremony. I am part of the organiser. So got to meet the celebrities again... Iwan Dangdut, Mamat Exist, Tety Kadi, Shahril etc.... Gerek larh Shey!! lolx.. && There was this one minister, he was so cute larh!! Arabish look n so boyish.. but i know he is in his early thirties...

On Sunday i woke up at 1230 and straight to Woodlands CC. FUN, DMAX etc.. All was there... And people,, You guys wanna knw something?? Hehekz... SShhhh,, i am kinda have a crush with someone there just now. I was eyeing for him since last week at Wawan's dome.. Those who know about him, diam-diam ekh.. hehekz....

IT IS JUST A CRUSH!!! I AM STILL LOVING SAYYIDI....

Klah, thats all.... Bye!!! Wish me luck for my Prelims yarh!

dA'Ruth

missing 'D' in_ARKNESS

2007-09-08T01:40:00.000+08:00

The Fry-day

(nothing significant)

I was late again for school today. It's just a half an hour late though. Hehekz.. I had Chemistry remedial just now. Intensive? VERY! hakz.... After the 3 hours of 'suffer', went for friday prayers, YES FRIDAY PRAYERS! Hehekz.. I went back home after that, just for an hour... Out again to study with 'the chargers' at airport then to my abang's house to return him his shirt! huh!!! I then rushed to woodlands back from tampines to catch movie with Daen... Ratatouille of wadeva it is spelled as,, was GREAT! Yarh!! Humorous with good motivational advices included... Serious.. "Not EVERYONE has the TALENT. But, the TALENT can come ANYWHERE."-quoted from the movie. Hehekz.. A theme of self-belief and gutts is potrayed in the movie. Lolx.. It is a MUST WATCH rated! lolx... Thanx to Daen for the treat!

By the way, there's a scene where there's an alien. When he smiles or the merajok face, it was exactly the way YOU always do! Cute! Serious... Exactly the same... With your wide sweet smile... Hehekz... In conclusion, YOU look like an ALIEN! Thus, I'm in LOVE with an ALIEN! lolx.. bluekz!

To and fro woodlands interchange, was hoping to bump onto you but didnt. Fated i guess. Fated to never meet again?? Haish... And if i always tell you to priorotise, now is the time for me to.. My priority is my O'levels... There's only one month left for me to have the final lap.. It is Tough! Lolx...

Alright, time to sleep. Hope to see you in my dream yeah?? Yes YOU! The one that cant live without his ego and .... yarh ego only i guess... hehekz... Muackiesz!! I hope you know thta i am talking about you.. Nitez!!!

dA'Ruth

yes you D,

2007-09-05T00:10:00.000+08:00

KESAL

Terkadang masa menikam dan terus berlalu pergi...

Meninggal kan sisa dan membuka seribu luka di hati...

Walau ku cuba hindarkan sesal di dada...

Kesilapan lalu menghantui diri ku...

Segala yang indah sering menemani ruang sepi ku...

Senyum dan tawa mu masih jelas terbayang di mata ku...

Kini semuanya menjadi kenangan silam...

Sesal hati dirundung kecewa...

Aku tak pernah menduga...

Begini hebatnya duka lara bila berakhirnya cinta...

Mengapa sukar untuk ku melupakan mu...

Namun mudahnya kau membenci diri ini...

Apalah gunanya ku terus mencari kesilapan diri...

Sedang kau tak pernah ingin mengerti perasaan di hati...

Pernah kah kau rasa hangatnya genangan...

Air mataku yang tak mungkin mengalir...

Sungguh aku tak pernah mengerti...

Mengapa semua harus begini

Seribu luka... kesal dihati...

Betapa ku kesal... biar ku... sendiri...

Didedikasikan kepada Sayyidi.

2007-09-04T23:55:00.000+08:00

Very Last Words

Tears are in my eyes and yet you are still asking about his friendster? We were talking about us. In fact, I was the only one taking this relationship seriously. Not you. I was like telling you about whats gonna happen to both of us, and you said nothing about it. How could you? Dont you ever bother about me? Okay, not me but at least our friendship. You were lik so desperate to view his friendster? OMG! He is so damn effing straight! Please, i am damn serious in this matter while you take this things so lightly. And you still pleading me to know his friendster. Haish.. Wont you say anything about us now?? We are going to go on our seperate ways. This time, i will really walk the talk. I was terribly shocked! And there you go pleading me again.

As for now, i really hope one day you will understand my feelings towards you. Not just understand but appreciate at least. Thanx alot to SAYYIDI. Yes i am telling the whole world and this is my blog. So yarhs... No use to be waiting for the one that will never appear. If it does, it will be a miracle or just a dream....

I will never be into any relationships with guys till i get you as mine. -mark them.

dA'Ruth

2007-09-04T19:05:00.000+08:00

To 'di' in the tagboard,, are you really sayyidi or just anyone else??

Anyways,,

Since when i didnt appreciate the person by the name Sayyidi????

2007-09-02T01:08:00.000+08:00

MTV UNSUNG HERO @ MOS

Media Pass
Ridiculous?? Lolx...
Cranberry VODKA was the Sinful one!!

I dont even knw what they have given me... Just ate 'em! lolx..

MTV UNSUNG HERO @ MOS!!!

Ouh Emm Gee!!! It was effing Fun larh shey!! The Press send me to M.O.S. to do a coverage on MTV Unsung Hero! I went there alone larh shey! Frankly i dont know what shit are they d0ing there... I just enjoyed myself drinking coz it was free... I was served by the people there, got seated in the VIP corner where all the media press etc people were sitting there.. FYI, it was not an underage party and!! i was the youngest over there! lolx.. Coke Vodka, Cranberry Vodka, Tiger, Wine, Whiskey etc, i drank all and got drunk abit... It was damn effing Free - Flow... Additional of Damn Effing HOT Stuffs there!! lolx... We are served with so many food.. one after another.. i was full serious.. I drank three bottles of Tiger.. lolx.. I dodnt go really drunk corz, i didnt smoke, not even a puff the whole day!! Lolx... The funny thing is, i went out carrying a half fulled Tiger with me ang got caught. lolx.. Paiseh Sia... hehekz.. anyways, i enjoyed alot!!

2007-09-02T00:26:00.001+08:00

Teacher's Day Celebration At JYSS

Miss Christina Lin!!! Iqbal and Ruth

The Presenters for Torch Award!

Willy Wonka & Neutrogena Winner

Teacher's Day Celebration @ JYSS

It was superb coz i've been selected to be the presenters for the award giving to the teachers. I and Yuzil were asssigned to present the Funny Bone Award. There are also, Willy Wonka Award, Teddy Bear Award, Junyuan Hunk Award etc. Lolx.. Luckily, mine was among the best ones... At last there was an applause when we came out. The theme of this post was that i wore a WIG!!! in school! Throughout the celebration.. Hehekz... Okay,, btw there will be another write up from me at BERITA HARIAN this monday! Must BUY! hehekz.. To all the teachers, Happy Teachers' Day!!!

2007-08-31T02:06:00.000+08:00

Will my birthday wish be granted?

You decide.

Dangerously missing 'D' in _ARKNESS

You solve.

Loving you gives me COURAGE.

Being loved by you gives me STRENGTH.

You think.

Please give me one more chance to prove my LOVE to you.

2007-08-28T23:57:00.000+08:00

Him, Myself, Family, Studies

I have no idea on what to write. What should i post today?? Nothing great happened this week. Was busy with school etc. Prelims in two week's time. I am readily to say that i am not ready! I cant stay focus even in classroom. Ok, i can but i jut dont push it harder. I've been thinking for so many things inside my head. Him, Myself, Family, Studies.

It's hard to breathe without you by my side. I've inspired a love of faith inside you since we first met. I want us to be a part, never apart. I'm really missing you now. Please do give me a call at times when you are free. Dont you even have a bit sense of missing me?? I hope u do have. I was hoping to meet you. veryday, after school, i will stroll around the causeway point area to look for you. But never. Perhaps, it's fated that we shall not see each other again? You want it that way??

About myself. haish... Yes, he is my priority. Himself than me. For now, I will just focus on my studies. I need to prove that i can be better than anyone else. To my peeps out there (FUN & Dancers) i cant be seeing you guys often now. yarh... I really need to struggle for just this few months. A few words from me, to my friends(dancers), please do concentrate at this crucial time. Most of you guys are taking major examinations this year. Prioritise yourself. Prove to your parents and others who have been looking down upon dancers like us. Prove them that although we are busy reaching our passion of dancing like some of you especially Wawan, i can see that he really put in 100% in dance, we can still achieved in our academic excellence. Prove them wrong. I had experienced once where the public looking down upon us, the dancers. So, take that as challenge to prove yourself. This i just an advice from me. :)

My family. Better not to say.

Studies have been going on well. Now i need to focus on my Sciences and Humans. This are my targets for O'levels.

English - B4
E Maths - B3
C. Science - B4
Literature - B3
C. Humans - B3
Malay - A2 (achieved)
L1R4 - 15

Alright, this will be my last few posts before O'levels. Anything, contact me 94270789.

Sayyidi!!

*You are just someone special to me!*

dA'Ruth

Missing 'D' in _ARKNESS

2007-08-21T22:18:00.000+08:00

Is this what we call a family?

I just feel weird here in this new house! With this new aliens in my house, no not mine, theirs.. Why cant my own mother believe me? ? What did i do wrong? I admit that i've used to lie to you.. But not anymore.. When i first reach home, she straight away nag at me. Why cant it be like the other mothers asking if their children have eaten or not or how was the school just now. Wont that be better? To my classmates, i was with you guys rigth just now? I had my Maths test till 5 and need to go for detention because i was late. Argued with the Operation Manager in the morning... AARRGGHHHH... It was fucking day today! The OM took my ezlink and just went home leaving all the ezlinks locked inside a locker as if the DM had the keys to open it. Its true what my DM said, if the OM was the one confiscated our ezlinks, why should the DM the one must return it to us... I agree with eu Sir! Thanx for giving me money for my bus fare and it is not enough though. Back to the night study with you guys. I know we didnt do much just now becaue we were busy doing the jingles for teacher's day. But, i was with you guys right?? This is the dialogoue between me and my mum just now...

Convo 1

Mum: Asal balik lambat?
Me: Sekolah macam biaser.. ader night study..
Mum: Sekolah, belajar, sekolah , belajar... ntah btol ke tidak...
Me: 'expected'
Mum: Nanti besok gi kol Starhub pasal internet ni. tadi Abg Hairi(step bro) pasang tetap takbleh pakai.
Me: Asal tadi tak kol Starhub tros jer??
Mum: Asal plak, bende abang, abanglah yang kol.
Me: huh?! takbleh tolong ke kol kan abang??
Mum: Nak buat aper? kalau taknak kol, jgn pakai internet lagi..
Me: abeh tadi abg g skolah tak percaya larh?
Mum: memang tak percaya pun.. (sarcastic)

I cried in front of my mum n my step father. I cant control my tears. Cant they just help me to call the Starhub?? i'm their son. am i an outsider to them?? haish...

dA'Ruth

2007-08-19T01:24:00.000+08:00

Still Waiting....

I am feeling sleepy right now but i just dont feel like sleeping. I cant close my eyes without 'having' you in me here. Just look, you are really a special one to me. I have never waited for someone this long besides Shahrul. Honestly I say, it must be possible for me if i were to keep waiting. And I will. I believe that when it is hard to get, it will be harder to lose.

You told me about someone else. You share your feelings bout him with me. I smiled, because i'm just happy to hear you talk. I cant stand it anymore to know about your feelings towards the others. How about me? The one waiting?? Do you think that i feel good to hear about your loe with others? I'm sure you wouldnt feel good too. I dont want to say this in front of you because i'm afraid that you will stop talking to me.

Sometimes i feel that i should just be thankful to still have you as a friend and not more than that. I always regard you more than a friend though. A special one indeed.

I know i always hurting your feelings by throwing sarcasms to you. A lot of them. Sometimes i am just making nuisance of myself. Creating problems, finding faults with you especially. Do you ever think why i did that? Did you ever realise why do you think i am acting like that? Being immature or childish?? If you realised it then its good. But if you dont, and if u want to know, I did all that nonsence because i want attention from you. Yes! Seeking attention from you!! I need you to know that i'm exist. Exist to love you!!

Haiiz.. I know i'm just being so emotional. Lolx. I dont know myself.

Till here... Love you "da gerl!"

Muackiesz!!

Kiter Sayang Awak!

dA'Ruth

2007-08-13T17:59:00.000+08:00

2007-08-13T17:20:00.000+08:00

Today i just wanna start with sumthing serious...

Tahun ini adalah tahun yang agak sukar bagi diriku. Pelbagai masalah yang menimpa diriku. Terutama sekali keluargaku. Kadang0kala aku terfikir, memang benar jika orang mengatakan bahawa porak-peranda sesebuah rumahtangga akan meninggalkan kesan yang kurang baik kepada anak-anak. Pendek kata anak yang menjadi mangsa daripada pertelingkahan ibubapa. Terus terang, aku lebih rela melihat ibuku tidak bersama ayah lagi. Masing-masing kini sudah menjalani arah yang berlainan. Lebih baik daripada duduk serumah dengan berperangai hipokrit dan egoistik antara satu sama lain. Benci. Aku menyalahkan kedua-dua pihak. Memang payah untukku menerima ini semua tetapi aku yakin ini adalah pemberianNya untuk mendewasakan diriku sendiri. Bak kata guruku, aku ini dipilih untuk merasakan erti kehidupan dahulu daripada kawan-kawanku yang lain. Setelah bercerai, aku mengikut ibuku, juga dengan adikku. Kami tinggal di rumah 'L' di Jalan Kukoh dekat Outram Park. Alhamdulillah.. Walaupun tidak biasa duduk di rumah yang begitu kecil, aku tetap sudah biasa dengan ahli keluargaku sendiri.

Ramai yang lain boleh melihat aku bergembira. Aku sering bergurau dengan kawan-kawanku, Jarang sekali aku menangis di hadapan mereka. Adakah mereka tahu bahawa aku sedang mengalami masalah?? Aku bersyukur kerana tetap ada teman-temanku yang masih mengambil-berat tentang diriku. Terima Kasih aku ucapkan. Memang susah untuk mendapat seorang teman yang pandai menjaga perasaan dan memahami diriku ini. Untuk semua teman-temanku diluar, terutama sekali yang sering keluar bersama (FUN dll) , bertuah rasanya kerana mendapat rakan seperti kamu semua. Ada juga tempat untukku mengadu.

Kini, ibuku pun telah bernikah lagi. Walaupun tidak ditanya pendapatku atau izinku, aku tidak kesah. Aku gembira jika ini adalah yang terbaik untuk ibuku. Aku tahu ibuku sudah lama hidup merana. Cukup lah beban yang ditanggung selama ini. Dengan kata herdikan ahli keluarga sendiri. Tidak sanggup aku melihat ibuku merana lagi. Puas. Walaupun aku kadang-kala bersikap biadap terhadapnya, aku tetap sayangkan beliau. Keistimewaan ibuku terserlah kerana sikapnya yang tidak suka mengadu nasib kepada orang lain. Dia tidak mahu meminta simpati terhadap orang lain mahupun keluarga sendiri. Dia lebih rela berdiam diri dan menanggung bebannya seseorang kerana juga tidak mahu anak-anaknya diganggu.

Di hari pernikahan ibu kelmarin, Alhamdulillah berjalan lancar. Aku menangis bersendirian di dalam bilik. Tidak tahu mengapa. Aku harus gembira tetapi aku tersedu-sedu menangis. Sebenarnya aku masih rindukan ayah kandungku. Walaupun aku tahu mustahil, aku tetap berdoa agar mereka dapat berujuk semula. Aku akan berpuas hati apabila melihat ibuku gembira. Sudah cukup bagiku.

Seorang lagi yang main peranan dalam hidupku pada masa ini juga harusku berterima kasih. Aku yakin kau tidak pernah sedar bahawa kehadiran kau membawa riang dalam diriku. I'm just so touched because you are the first one to ask for my results in the morning! (i did cry anyways.) Yarh! corz its like so touching larh.. Its not my family but YOU!! Thanx alot! I really appreciate you! And, after i have gotten my results, you are the first one whom i called! Serious!! At least someone is waiting for my results. Not forgetting Yenny, Amin and Danny too... :))

I was waiting for my mom to call me but she did not. I was the one who called her bout my MT O'levels results. Haish.. Thats why, YOU were the first one to know bout my results!! Love YOU la gerl'!! hehekz... Alright, thinking of you makes me in a happy mood...

Wow, readers, i know i wrote in malay for the first few paragrahphs of my post. lolx.. Just feel like writing malay arh.. so yarh..

&& Congrats to all of my friends who scored Distinctions for Malay paper!! And the others who didnt manage to score As, dont give up.. U guys still have the chance to retake!!

&& YOU, I LOVE YOU!!!

2007-08-11T23:24:00.000+08:00

National Day Celebration @ Junyuan

2007-08-11T22:52:00.000+08:00

National Day Celebration @ Junyuan!

It was the best lar shey! lolx.. It was all like a real NDP! And i got to move around while everyone needs to stand in attention.. lolx.. I need to make a newspaper report on the celebration at my school.. I took photos.. lolx.. Even when the national anthem was sung.. And, now i know it os not really that easy to be a reporter or journalist. lolx.. I did interview some of the students and teachers, wrote what they said on my notebook and had a whole day messed up with that.. It was not that organise larh.. hehekz.. So i need to re-arrange all the points.. But its ok! I'm satisfied with my work so with Kak Yani.. Thanx alot! I still need to learn more about reporter!!

The Most TipsyNiesst Night at East Coast!!

I went out at around 730?After i have done my report and stuff quickly got changed. Took service no 197. IT WAS HELL!!! It was like a very damn long journey.. Somemore it was peak hour and public holiday eve. haiya!! That night was fun! Serious!! lolx.. Especially mast, stop it sia with that thang!! The joke i meant! And!! I got RAPED!! Jeng!!

Yenny: Never felt enough to 'bully' me! bluekz!! majok ar!

Shilla: Went to ECP with her 'minahly' VonDutch mini pink skirt!! lolx..

Fariz: U gone TIPSY first! Loser! lolx..

Ayul: Cant stop peeping people doing project!

Mast: "skrg die cakap mcm gini. kalo terbalek kan mcm maner ekh. ko kene tgk kat depan... lepas tu mesti habis. jangan takot boleh sambong." -stop it sia mas

Wawan: Touch down!! && thanx coz at last u got the motive right! lolx..

Daen: Shirt+3quarter track pants+exclusive tote bag+CAPAL!!! Ouh My GoD!! lolx..

Shaun: "Rapist" -I'm innocent larh!! hehekz...

NDP @ Marina Bay 2007

Correction,, NDP @ Marina Bay nyer belakang! lolx.. It was so pack larh! And stupid ang mohs & some Singaporeans got tricked by us! lolx.. Typical! hehekz.. After the 'amazing' fireworks, we went to sit at marina square ( 2 belon merah, 1 belon hijau ) lolx.. Then came one of the musical note, Yenny was annoyed! lolx.. bluekz!! Went back with yenny as usual took 51 && skali the rapist pun naek arh!! hehekz.. Yenny made me paiseh sia! or both of us?? How could eu ask him like that? i am actually dah malu tau!! hehekz.. Both of us were drunk and didnt know was were we doing k? oopPSs!!!

*I was thinking about you the whole day*

Miss eu larh Gerl!!*

-dA'Ruth

2007-08-05T13:45:00.000+08:00

HEY!! My blog is NEVER dead neither can it be buried k?!!! I was damn effing busy k people!! I have schools with lots of assignments and remedials. Then with the Bahas that was held yesterday. lolx.. I know all of eu readers miss me rite??? hehekz..

So let's start with Friday.. I had school till 1230 a susual and go for the friday prayers. YES! Friday Prayers!! hehekz.. then went back to school for Geography Remedial which ends at 5 sia!! lolx.. I quickly rush home coz need to go to Asyraf's Birthday Pit! hehekz.. I took bus no 196. REGRET!!! The bus was like effing long distance journey larh!! And that time when i board was at peak hour. Haish... It took me 2 hours to reach Marine Parade.

*&& Sesungguhnya Yenny didnt understand my text in the SMS.. lolx.. Nvm..*

Met all of them! YeahNesS!!! Miss all of them so much!! We had fun at Asyraf's birthday yarh! hehekz.. & Again, not forgetting our Barren! hehekz..Conclusion: Fariz & I won the Game!! hehekz.. Yenny, wawan and shilla takleh angkz lar!! weak ar lu!! hehekz...

I was suppose to go back b4 12 to finish up with my Bahas thingy, the powerp0int slides... But, JIWA nyer pasal ekh,, i stayed till morning.. Took cab with yenny n hakiim.. I was the last to alight! & the taxi driver was damn BENGAPZ!! haish.. Kek sim u noe! lolx...

Reached home at 530am. Straight away i switched on my comp and start with my work. i had only like 4 hours to complete. & yes, i need to do it thrice! Fcuk! Fcuk! Fcuk!!!! When i am almost done with the slides, my comp hung! And same goes with the second try.. I was like crying alone in front of the screen.. haish... Finally it was done at 9. i slept for only 30mins and bathe to get changed. Was very tired!! haish..

The bahas was OKAYLARH.. still got some cons larh.. Majlis Melayu marh... lolx.. I was like os nervous as i am the pengacara for the finals.. lolx.. After Bahas, planned to go to esplanade to watch fireworks. So we took 518 from tampines.. 1 hour journey sia.. pantat leh flat! lolx.. but eventually we did not alight at esplanade. Thanx to me! hehekz... sowie people!! Supposedly we alight at marina square. But then, i thought it stops directly infront of the DXO club.. *confident* hehekz... after the stop at marina square, the bus directly go towards ECP!!! THANX EKH!!! so we are just spending time in the bus rotting! lolx... but fun lah.. we end up at tampines again.. lolx... had our dinner at kfc. Then went home larh, i took MRT. & i thought yesterday was a bad luck for me. I took the train at tampines to city hall.. However, when i opened my eyes.. It was at BOON LAY!!!! FCUK!! So i was sleeping the whole time inside the train. And the most stupid of me was i went down the escalator and tap my ez-link. lolx.. stupid wasnt it? then i confirmed, yarh it was not a dream and yes i was at boon lay! lolx.. seriously i did that... Then i tap back to take the train larh.. lolx.. && yesterday i left my handphone at home. & i have got no watch too. So i donoe the time... I alight at outram and took cab from there. i reached hoem at around 1210am.. yarh.. I straight away sleep and just woke up just now at 130.. lolx..

Today, g0ing to support FUN again for their performance at woodlands!! hehekz.. C eu guys there!! bye!!

-dA'Ruth

missing someone badly

2007-07-22T22:57:00.000+08:00

[D] [&] [R]

Did i rush again this time?

I knew* him only for less than a week, yarh. It was kinda fast, i know. && now i am scared. Seriously serious. Not that i cant adapt to him or not comfortable with him. Its about him, himself.. Its hard for me to trust people again. After so many things happened before this. I still remember you asking me about who is more important, friends or bf.. && I hope you can treat me differently from your friends.. I think you are like treating me like your friends.. Uh, perhaps i am just putting too high expectations again.. haish.. & lastly, if you are with me or you could accept me & thats was wad u did,, u need to be able to mix around with my friends also ok?? I hope you understand here.. I am really loving you now. Yes I do. *winks*

Ouh yar.. yesterday, so called 'returned' back to my very first house at Tampines.. 868.. hehekz.. Kinda miss those times.. Now i can remember quite abitlarh abou tour childhood times.. hehekz.. Ibu told me that eu and ur sister always come to my house to play. as in play yarh.. hehekz.. && she said the most irritating was,

U NEVER WANT TO GO BACK!!

hur hur.. && Ibu said ur face didnt change.. lolx.. If only i didnt move from 855 or best still 868, i can go your house EVERYNIGHT lar seh.. hahakz..

*Ruth Loves you so much!*

dA'Ruth & [D]

2007-07-21T10:59:00.000+08:00

[D] [&] [R]

20.07.2007

*smile* I have got no idea on how to start this. I think I am already satisfied now with what i have gotten. That someone. That feelings came staright to me right after hearing your stories. I can see what type of person you are.. but i know theres many things more that i dont know.

Thanks for bringing me there yesterday. Two of us at Marina South, yarh.. I love it & u too.. *winks* As both of us are still new to each other although we were chilhood friends last time.. hehekz.. And now??? hmm... We need to time to adapt with each other. I hope you understand k dear??

So, i will be meeting you again today rite?? hehekz.. Cant wait sia!

Luv u lotz!!

MuAcKiEsZ!!!

[D]' Ruth

2007-07-19T22:00:00.000+08:00

51 & 27 Day!!

You folks must be wondering why issit 51 & 27 Day... Hmm.. I woke up at 630am to go to school. And that was rather late. When i was bathing, i talk to myself.. "shud i go or shud i not go to school" ... Bad right?? hmm.. lolx.. & i decided not to go to school.. yarh... Why??

First: Didnt do my homework

Second: Dont care to pack my bags

Third: Tired to face POA teacher.

Fourth: Sleepy

Fifth: No Mood!

Lastly: Chemistry 3 periods = 90mins!

har har har...

I went out from my house at 710am.. Walk to the bustop slowly while finding a place to go.. Ah,, AIRPORT!! hehekz.. I saw the time, it was only 720am.. So i look at the bus directory at the bustop.. hmm.. Bus service no 51 terminating at Hougang.. From hougang i can take bus no 27 to Airport.. So yarh!! So, i took 51.. Sat at the second decker and at the very back.. First of all, I SLEPT!!! hehekz.. Dont mind people,, the ride was 1 and a half hour to Hougang.. lolx..i reached Hougang interchange at around 9am.. Then staright away i board 27 to Airport.. Still, i was very sleepy that time.. So i took a nap still.. hehekz... 45 mins to Airport...

I went to Terminal 1. Wnet to the burger king there.. It was kinda busy though it was only 10am.. "SHAHRUL,, AIRPORT MAH.. WAD DO EU EXPECT???!! HAIYO..." lol.. thats why.. i forgot its an Airport... I sat there alone.. Took out my assignments and yes.. i got it done all except SS. yeah!! I spent 4 hours there...

I took the same route back home.. lol.. Again i slept inside the bus... Total i spent about 5hours inside the bus to n fro.. Fun right?? Lolx...

So tomorrow, i need to go to school. Must.. Its only 95 days to O Levels!!! First Warning eh.. hehkz...

"I need to know you well before i could accept you" - dA'Ruth

pics

2007-07-19T16:57:00.000+08:00

Enjoy the pics during Racial Harmony Day Celebration @ JYSS ....

-dA-Ruth ....

2007-07-19T16:21:00.000+08:00

Why must i react??

I sometimes feel myself being ridiculous responding to something happened that is effing more ridiculous made by goddamn effing RIDICULOUS person!! Har har har.. Its stupid you know when i see myself behaving like kids. Folks, i know you guys dont like me being that way. Perhaps i m too much. Yarh, ouhkay... I'll try to stop being childish towards that horbit k? When i say those things to that horbit, i dont even know what exactly am i feeling...

Mad? Sad? Satisfied?

hmm.. I seriously serious dont know.. As from now on, i'll just ignore that horbit.

'You were never a friend to me'

To the ones who HEARD bout it..

I dont know and shall not care where you guys heard about me and stuff. I'm tired to listen to each and every story you guys have for me. All are making myself complicated. Please people, hear the right ones, PLEASE.

To Yenny

Thanx for all this while. You have been such a good friend of mine. I really appreciate that. However not only Yenny but the rest... All of my friends, thanx for helping me whenever i need help.. && Meet you guys on Saturday k?? Muackiesz!!! hehekz...

Monday

I had MT Listening Compre. It started at 430 and we were dismissed at 1.15. For almost 3 hours i am alone at Tampines Mall!! I'm so bored sitting alone at Starbucks. I had my favourite Raspberry Cream Frap!!! Hehekz.. Then, there were so many Tampines Sec students.. Aper lagi, i tangkap jambu ah duduk sorg2 kat starbucks... lolx...

Tuesday

It was a tiring day larh.. Gosh.. School dismissed at 245. I received a msg from my mum saying that my granny was ill.. So need to rush to her house. Then before i went back home, i dropped at bugis station to search for the japanese pants (seluar langsir) for racial harmony celebration the next day. And yes i found. But i didnt buy it. Next stop was at chinatown.. yarh.. There were so many alot more choices larh.. coolness!! But that time, i 've got no cash with me.. So i need to go back first to take the money. I reached home and called my mum asking for money. She wa sat work, going home. I met her at the bustop behing my block. Then i straight away go back to Chinatown to get the pants.. I walked to and fro to chinatown!! damn tired.. lolx.... But, satisfied with the pants anyway.

The celebration was fun at school.. We had 4 free periods as my english cum lit teacher was absent. lolx.. We spent our time camwhoring larh!!! hehekz...

dA'Ruth

2007-07-15T20:05:00.000+08:00

2007-07-15T19:21:00.000+08:00

2007-07-15T19:05:00.000+08:00

Friday

Nothing much. Met FUN at Woodlands. yarh.. And the routine goes....

The Esplanade MAX!

Saturday was great to the max larh.. I met so many people yesterday.. Firstly inthe morning went out to TPJC for bahas.. Yarh.. Before the bahas ends, i cabot to town to meet Danny!! lolx.. Together with his Indonesian frens.. Fun meeting them.. Such a nice people yeah! I had a great time with eu!! Hope to meet you again yeah for Harry Porter! hehekz... *hugs*

At 9pm i rushed to esplanade lar shey.. ahakz!! So many peeps there... Obviously my second family; FUN.. Then *him and his friends, Dannish..Yusri Doodie!! ahakz.. cute little shorty guy.. no offence.. Shahrul, Zaf, Syahril and many many more larh... We all lepak together.. And fyi, the theme for yesterday's outing at esplanade was "Throwing Stones" ... It all started with Fariz right?? lolx...

@ Ulu Pandan

Sorry Yenny and yawll... I woke up late larh.. lolx.. Its okay guys,, though you dont gat into the finals, at least u guys had fun rite?? i m sure. VERY.. lolx.. && "Da Mak Ayam Xplosion" (Dmax) won first!! Sowie Faiz... Congrats!! && also to DUA also who got the first runner up..!!

Tomorrow

&& Yarh tomorrow will be my last paper for my MT O'levels. Listening Compre!! hehekz.. kepada sessiapa yang akan menduduki peperiksaan esok, harap mengorek telinga. Kalau boleh dengan hujund sudu atau penknife k?? lagi mujarab!! Terutama sekali Yenny. Btw,, Yenny ko leh paham tak besok nanti? Ujian Pemaham Mendengar dijalankan dengan bahasa Melayu tau.. Bukan Indon.. oops.. Hrp2 ko faham lar eh.. hehekz.... Good Luck to those taking the paper tmr!! Bismillah!

dA'Ruth

2007-07-15T17:51:00.000+08:00

It's Done..

I promise myself this will be the last i'm hurting you.

I understand it really hurts when someone that you really love walks away just like that without any reasons.

But i do have my own reasons.

Forgive me for all this while.

Talking behind you, irritating you, critisize etcetra.

I'm sorry. But i hope you know me well.

This is not the first time i'm being like this and i am sure.

I thought with the second opportunity i could give you all my love but i was wrong. VERY.

Nah, it has already happened. I know you are really mad at me.

HATE me all you want BUT please just keep it to yourself.

It is not wrong to share your feelings with others but not everyone. Seriously. I heard so many stories that are not supposed to be shared are all within their ears.

Who told them??

Why must it be this bad??

I am pleading you not to tell anymore to others about us. Only to those WE are close with.

Lastly, please please && please...

I have no more feelings towards you.

No more!

TOTAL DAMN BULLSHIT ASSHOLE ZERO LOVE towards you.

So, please dont try to make me jealous or anything.

But, if u want people to laugh at your immaturity, just continue on k?

I think thats all. As for now, i shall just treat you as if i never met you before. Yes.. NEVER.

Last say:

All The Best in Your Love Life.

Sorry, MONKEY LOVE Life.. yarh..

The Irreplaceble

To you,

hopefully i can forget about you although you are my greatest love.

I appreciate you so much but i'm sure its impossible for me to gain that appreciation from you.

Both Love & Appreciation.

Since i knew you, you have let me over someone.

You have managed to take away my heart from him.

Thanx for appearing in my life.

You have change me alot.

Yes, i know myself.

Though it was just a short period of time, you have made a great impact in my life.

I know i have lots to say but i just cant tpye it here.

Why am i crying when i am seeing you happy?

You are happy now with your life.

If you are then i am. Perhaps happier...

You are the third person who have taken my heart fully to the extant where it is hard to leave.

Your hugs, your kiss, your smile, your voice & your heart will always be in my heart.

Pakcik sayang awaklah Gerl!!

dA'Ruth

2007-07-15T17:34:00.000+08:00

Love eu all my folks!!!
candid???
Ruth' & Mint'Z
Ruthiy & Milly...muackiesz!
This pic rox!!

2007-07-08T22:22:00.000+08:00

I AM JUST BUSY LARH......

Hey gorGeous PeoplE,, my blog is not abandoned neither am i left my blog without updating. I am busy larh for this week. Got so many effing things to do.. Especially the preparation for Bahas Piala Berita Harian 2007. Haish.. Seriously serious the serious busy.. Need to prepare my text as Pengerusi , Host and for the quizes for the interactive session.. Its alot of things k people.. Overall it was fun!! Being the Pengerusi with everyones eyes on me.. hehekz.. Great u noe.. Got the jantZ-jantZ there,, Slurrppp!!! lolx... Cant wait for the quarter finals this saturday. .People who wants to watch the debate, its at Tampines JC. Anything just contact me. aytez?!! :))

So thats about the Bahas.. Now lets start on Friday;

O'levels Malay Lang Oral Examination

Alhamdulilllah,, the topic for the conversation was not that difficult. However, i have not alot of confidence in getting Distinction. As i know that i didnt really answered to the question. Or, my answers and responds were not relevant. Haish...

With the gerl lar shey!!

That night i slept at my abang's house at Tampines. Yarh,, but before that i met the gerl at Bedok. Coz my abang didnt want me to come early as he got something on that time .So i met the gerl and just spending our time together chit-chatting jer.. We sat at the streetsoccer court... && yarh, I enjoy myself with you.. & u should know how much i miss eu gerl...

...Shille's B'day Party...

*Saturday*

I took cab from Bedok to my abang's house. Reached his place at around 1am? yarhs... Then woke up at 730 to get ready for the Bahas. After Bahas, went to Nazmi's competition at TP. Met my second family there. It was awesome! After that, off we went to Pasir Ris to Shille's birthday party. Thanx to her or anyone who gave the wrong direction.. Thanx ekh.. U've made us walk around the whole bungalow houses... hehekz..

&& when i reache dthe chalet; BARANG BAIK SUNDELLL!!! OMG, the abang2 there was like so the HOTZ!!! *meltz* hehekz.. Ouh yarh, not forgetting the Karaoke Session! hehekz..

*SUNDAY*

At 4 went back to Nazmi's house. I need to take the shirt from him so i can wear it that day. *to those party who doesnt seem to understand, please do now.* Had only 3 hours of sleep and need to go back for the Bahas for the second Prelim round. The crowd was not bad!! hehekz....

*Esplanade*

Then at 8 i reached Esplanade. Sorry cant watch u guys perform coz i m stucked at TPJC. hehekz.. Anyways, congratulations to FUN and whoever participated it.

I was alone at the City Hall mrt station, then saw Shahrul & Syahril on my way there.. Yarh.. loolx.. No comments.

When i got back home, i have another exclusive Bahas form my mum.. haish...

dA'Ruth

2007-07-03T06:24:00.000+08:00

Ruth ll Shilla ll Yenny

Wawan & Ruth

dA'Ruth & Miz'C

*ooOOPppsssSS...* *baru lepas ngorok*

2007-07-02T23:38:00.000+08:00

To "SM"

Eu miss me??

Now that i know who you are.

It was unexpected though.

Thanx. I hope you are doing fine there.

I am also missing you at times.

Sorry for whatever i have don to you lately.

Take care!

To "Anonymous"

Thanx ekh.. but no thanx larh..

If i m being rude or sarcastic, let me know k?

Who are you exactly? I am sure you are not close to me. If you are, you should know the way i talk or joke. So yarh..

Shou' not respect till revealed.

*random*

Yenny!!!

She shocked me till i fell down in a slow motion way with an "aaarrgghhhhh" (not so loud yet not so soft) ..

Lolx!! Be there, && you guys will laugh.

dA'Ruth

2007-07-02T23:23:00.000+08:00

**To HIM**

Firstly, thanks for the words.

I have nothing to say after i read it.

Silence.

I do not even know what am i doing.

Or even what am i supposed to do

Confused.

Happens everytime.

Is this an another wrong path which i have taken?

Does it mean i am going through the same old things again?

Why must this happens to me??

Do you really love me?

Yes you've convinced me.

Convinced me with only words. It's not enough my dear.

Never enough.

Now look, you can do anything and evrything under the sun to show your love towards someone.

However it is useless when you cant give the exact thing he wants in the love or relationship.

I tried understand you, but i cant.

I tried to accept you as who you are, but its kinda hard for me.

I tried to love you ..............

Remember, you need to have the precise thang in order to convince your love towards him.

If not, you are just wasting your time my dear.

Think. Think. Think.

Understand never equals to Appreciation

dA'Ruth

2007-06-30T23:33:00.000+08:00

O'levels Alarm!!

Its already the last semester now! I will be outz from JYSS (with an excellent results) in 4 month's time! yeahnesS!! Hopefully larh..Though the curriculum time has shorten this term, remedials & extra lessons keep coming in... Therefore, it is still the same as the previous term.. haish.. But its okay, suffer for only 3 months at least and i shall STRIVE!! hehekz.. Insyallah.. Ameen..

Hip-Hop Hurray @ Esplanade (Friday)

I met my besties again!! hehekz... So missing them larh.. Went to esplanade to watch the hip-hop thingy.. Unfortunately, it was raining.. Not heavy yet non-stop... After the first slot, it started to rain...

So we went to Marina Square for shelter. Some of us went to the toilet especially Him who wants to yak-yak... eewww.. hehekz.. Just 10 mins inside the shopping centre and we walked back to esplanade coz the next slot is starting soon.. Futhermore, its Yenny's so called our friends also larh performing.. so yarh.. Though it still rains, we just continue watching. Then during the second break, some of us were feeling hungry especially that shillallaa... So we went to Marina Square AGAIN.. Went to Burger King cum KFC.. Dont understand? Nevermind... lolx... Done with eating?? We walked back AGAIN to esplanade, to continue with the show.. This time was Sleeq who performed. Aliff,,, so cute larh!! lolx... After a while, someone i suggested to lepak or eat at Marina Square... & YES,, AGAIN!!!

The theme of Friday's outing is "Cross-over to & fro ; Marina Square & Esplanade" ... Yarh.. WTH...

Night at Shilla's House...

Yenny, Him & me went back to Shilla's house as her family went for a holiday.. So yarh.. We accompanied her larh.. We spent the night watching horror movies... k, *toot* .. .. .. *toot* .. .. .. .Then Fariz cooked for us nasi goreng dok!! Its not that hot or spicy actually.. But still the next morning, went to the toilet thrice.. lolx..

&& New 'hantu' invented by Yenny which is named 'hantu roti' .. Lolx.. Stop it sia...

OBOR Meeting (Saturday)

At around noon went off from Shilla's house.. I had a meeting with Berita Harian at 3pm.. && I was late, but not late.. Nothing much there.. Yarhs... && Sorry, i really cant face you.. its like, "eewwww..." ... Sorry, its just natural..

2nd Day Hip-Hop Hurray!

Met them again at the same place.. Today was packed.. In addition with the NDP preview spectators etc. I would just say 'OUH KEYH' lar... As usual went back with Yenny.. Took 51 & like sardine sia... The bus was so full lar shey.. && Both of us start our merepeks larh.. We played as radio Djs larh, host larh etc. Lolx..

New word in Kamus Dewan Edisi 5 : Kongratulasi...

Fun larh ngn kau Yenny.. hehekz...

dA'Ruth

2007-06-28T23:19:00.000+08:00

Da' HEADbanging . . .

Starts off school with literature today at 845am.

Mr Poh again, cant stop laughing with his jokes during lesson.. hehekz... && I wonder why, everyday since monday, i always sleep during english n literature lesson... Dont know why...

I believe i had enough sleep yet still sleepy,, doing the "headbang" .. hehekz...After literature was recess time.

Went down to get a cup of hot coffee!

Heaven DOK!!! lolx..

I was so sleepy today dont know why...

Next POA was fun!!!

Mr Tang shares his lurve story with us.

It was kinda sad larh.. He almost cried!!

&& Thanx to Mr Tang for giving us cookies as for Youth Day's gift..

*random*

I miss when people call me 'abang' as in elder brother.. Used to have quite a number of so called 'adek-angkat'.. but not anymore.. The last was Adam.. The guy who i will never know what his real intentions are.. Hehekz.. && He is so lovely.. *hugs*

*O'levels Alarm*

After school straight away heads to Changi Airport for revision. Ermm,, not really but completing holiday assignment.. lolx.. I was alone till Aishah came, followed by Az & Anaki. yeah.

& Its obvious that both of you were not really in good terms for awhile.. Just because she was late.. hehekz..Set off next to banquet at Simei but i went home staright. TIRED!

Inside the train saw a HOTstuff lar shey!! lolx... But, he was accompanied by an Indian guy, VERY Indian guy.. Bapakgula ker?? hehekz...

*Sentiments*

Again eu cant trust me?

Till when will eu be this way??

I'm sick & tired with all this crap.

I had enough during the last season.

I dont mind if eu are just being jealous.

To me jealousy shows hard about LOVE!

But eu have gone the other way of jealousy.

I dont even know how to explain.

About phonecalls, i hate when both of us remain silence.

We chat all night till we have nothing to chat about.

I'm totally FED_UP with this!!

AArrrggghhh......

Remember, i will be seating for my major exam in less than 3 months time.

I cant spend the whole effing day with eu.

& It wrong if u say that i dont miss eu..I do actually..

But i need time for revision and also my own time. haish...

I really hope eu understand ar k??

C'monlarh, to show ur love, does not mean eu need to call each and every single effing night!

G O S H ! !

&& now you are talking about revenge?

Gracious me,, i have left that path a very long time ago.

Do you want me to get back to the path??

Or maybe i need to be at the path back now???

RIGHT?? It must be effing RIGHT!!

[shall not let it out anywhere except here]

dA'Ruth

wednesday

2007-06-27T22:50:00.000+08:00

de ONLY ONE for 4 years!!

I believe this is what i call true love.

I've been waiting for that someone for almost 4 years.

Yet, till now i still couldnt have the chance to share my love with that special someone.

I still remember those time we have spent together.

It may be a very short period of time for you but as for me, it was a memorable one that i will never forget.

We laughed and cried together.

Our playing times after school.

The 'ring'; do you remember?

When you fell down onto my shoulders... hehekz..

We also share our problems, especially about our family backgrounds. Almost the same as mine. I understand how you feel.

There was also a time when we fought..

Misunderstanding.

You ignored my presence.

You made me isolated.

You guys were being hostile towards me.

Arrgghhh... I dont really know myslef now...

To YOU,

I am still waiting for the time when

i can share my love with YOU.

[between only Ruth & me]

@ ST 84

School was quite fun today as there are no POA & Chemistry lesson!! lolx.. English and Literature was gerek to the max larh... Mr Poh was funny like hell shit larh!!Quite lame at times though.. Wadeva it is, I AM STILL MISSING MRS DANIEL!!

O level exam is just around the corner. Cant afford to lose anymore time! Left only 116 days to the actual paper!! OMG!! Next weeek i'll be having my MT oral. [all the best ruth!!]

After school at 130, went to Changi Airport with my hubby, Esah, Anaki & Dj Az.. hehekz.. You are wrong, WE DID STUDY!! lolx.. And thanx to Esah & Co. for making me travel to and fro from Terminal 1 to Terminal 2 and back to Terminal 1.. Thanx ekh!! hehekz..

RINS

Thanx again but no thanx. I shall ignore you till i really know who you are. Bye...

Ruth needs a desert & a side dish!!

hehekz.. K thats random people!!

dA'Ruth

A Random One

2007-06-27T05:50:00.000+08:00

Da' Random One

Its 550am now. I am slightly early this morning. Now, i'm feeling that i'm missing someone. But i dont know who... There is something that supposed to be with is not with me now. I just feel uneasy. Keep thinking of someone, somebody but i cant figure out who. It maybe or may not be you.

Today, will be going to Airport to have my revision with my classmates; not the whole cohort, just a few larh.. && my hubby will be there.. hehekz... I hope, we really study there larh... O' levels is just round the corner.. 117 days left to go. SO FAST!!!

To RINS:

I really dont know who you are. However, i really do appreciate your concern towards me as your friend. I really do. Thanx alot rins. I cant answer myself why am i like this. People do change... Haish..

Got to go now... Already 6... . If not i'll be missing the first 174..

Wish me luck for the day!!

dA'Ruth

2007-06-25T19:05:00.000+08:00

Ruth with OBORIANZ!!

Saturday-Sunday Day-Out

2007-06-25T18:06:00.000+08:00

East Coast Pit

Practice starts at 11am at Sengkang, again i woke up at 1130am. I am so sorry Shilla, Mast and Eu. hehekz.. Reach there at around 130?? yarh,, had pract for about 2 hrs only then went to KFC for breakfast cum lunch.

At 630pm we headed to ECP. Carrying lotsa stuffs... not really actually larh... Arrive at the pit, went to eat, drink chit-chat etc. Very fun larh talking with them though i just knew them that night.. lolx... The best part was when Hakim(F4) record a video of drag dance using his phone.. "drag sundelll..." && There was a one this hotstuff gilller lar shey! but that guy was straight.. "too bad larh shahrul"
That night Barren was sold at 2 for $9.70.. Cheap rite?? Bought two, one for me and the other one for Him. But in the end, i drank half of His!! Didnt sleep much.. At 620am we left ECP, heading off to Shilla's house again... At Shilla's house, watched Kabil Khusyri Kabil Igam, best ah that movie.. Cried like hell! Anna also...

Shilla: Yg selenger laki aku, yang pelahap laki kau!! lolx..

Fariz: "Ni rokok actually aku nak bawak g camp" -dah biaser dah.

Jojo: Feeling drag sundell!! stop it ekh!! lolx...

Ayis: KEMBOJA! mak ayam tu!

Anna: A great listener to Ayul
Ayul: Blackcurrent of the night. NOPE! ALL THE TIME! hehekz.. tak abes-abes ngn 'pompan' dier...

An: Alighting bus service 27 opposite the library --> MACAM PA! lolx.. abeh dah paiseh, muka masam.. hehekz.. jgn marah yek!

Rizal: I saw eu and kiddo! ehem.. hehekz...

Eu: LET'S PLAY AMERICAN FOOTBALL!!! YEAH!!! cayang eu! hehekz...

Novena Performance..

- didnt put in 100% effort and attention

- insufficient of practice

- no energy

I am sorry to FUN,, I didnt perform well that day. Sorry!

Starbucks = Hotstuff Guys + Gossip

Went to Starbucks at Wheelock with Anna & Raudhah. Thanx to Anna for treating me that Raspberry Frap! hehekz.. Though its a wrong order.. lolx..So what did we talk about?? hmm..

- the HOT guy who works there..

- that indon gerl asking help for her lappy

- saw that Dannish!! HotneSS!!

- who is the best sex partner?? hehekz...

- that HOT guy reply me n raudhah, not you Anna!

- NNEEZZMIIII.....

- etc.. hehekz....

dA'Ruth

A Random One

2007-06-23T00:03:00.000+08:00

Image o' th' DAY!!!

YeNnY & RuTh
my face here: STIOP IT EKH!!

Wednesday Late-Night Chat

It was about 130 in the morning and was about to shut down my comp, i was invited to chat in a convo of 5 chatters. It was damn super bloody FUN larh!! I was like laughing out loud till my mum scolded me. We chatted till 4am?? yarh.. 4 in the morning...

Haiqal : stop it with the rrrumput kerrring...

Yenny: yang ni.. yang ni.. yenny..
Mast: cinta..tegarkan hatiku...
Anna: having a new admirer... H****..

Slept for 2 hrs ONLY!! Coz need to go for my POA remedial. Need to travel all the way to Tampines for 1.5hr, and i was LATE again!!

balance b/d

trading expenses
creditors & debitors
balance sheet
profit & loss
owner's equity
provision for bad debts

~I H A T E P O A!!!~

Fridae

Woke up at 1020am. On my comp, went online, doing stuff all that till 11am. Actually was suppose to meet my hubby at 12 at Woodlands for dance pract, but i was still at home at 1130. hehekz...

Climax o' th' Day

I saw a chinese drag bapok wearing pink dress with pink colour bag and pink heels strolling infront of Causeway Point. Furthermore, THAT BAPOK IS BOTAK!!!

It's like so the OO EMM GEE!!

Went pract at Woodlands dance studio. haiyo.. Need to get the whole remix song in just 2 days??!! && People, i am performing at Esquare at Novena this Sunday at 3pm with FUN.

@ MRT with Yenny

uu ii uu aa aa

jing jeng wala beng beng x3

(frog) emhemm...emhemm.. bluek

only Yenny knows bout ALL his! hehekz...

"Kami membawa lintas langsung dari lokasi peperangan di Jurong East. Berpuluh-puluh das tembakan dilepaskan pada pihak lawan."

Yenny & i said that coz we heard shooting sound as if there is a war striking near us. We were inside the train that time at Jurong East. When we looked at the other side of the window, our back, we saw fireworks behind us! Actually that was where the sound came from. We were like laughing larh.. All the way inside the train.. like idiots sia!! Then we have an award to be given to any of the passangers.

"DA' ATTRACTIVE & INNOVATIVE SHOE" AWARD

We were looking at peoples shoes larh.. Some have pairs, there was also a very dirty safety boot.. lolx.. However the winner goes to the woman who was wearing a red shoes with "bells" on it.. Interesting right?? hehekz...

To people who thinks that i m writing nonscience here, i understand. Only Yenny & Me who knows this.. hehekz...

&& now packing..
Packing my stuff now for tomorrows dance pract & pit at ECP. Gonna bring lotsa stuff. Haiyo!!!

I hope i have fun there with my hubby of corz && the rest...
Great Night!! Buaiz!!

dA'Ruth

Berita Harian Photoshoot

2007-06-22T10:45:00.000+08:00

Berita Harian photoshoot was on Wednesday. It was damn fun larh... Got to choose any suits that atrract me there.. As usual, pink will be my choice! Take a look at the pictures!!

Credits to Daen for lending the shoes to me and whoever whom i have seek help for that night for SHOES!! lolx...

dA'Ruth

~S e N t O s A ~ with folks.

2007-06-19T17:55:00.000+08:00

Initially i thought the Sentosa outing will be cancelled bcoz of raining non-stop. Aargh.. I was like so down larh.. Skali what i knoe, some were already on the way to harbourfront. hehekz.. So we just cont. with the plan. I was like carrying so many things, three big bags!! How to take bus sia!! So, i just took a cab to VivoCity. Meet at 11am & i'm still at home. But Yenny came the latest! lolx..

Reach Sentosa, Pahlawan Beach. Check-out places to sit, yarh the tower there. We eat-talk cock-drink-talk cock-bath-talk cock-eat. yarhs.. That was what we did till around 5pm. && yarh, not forgeting our dancer of the day, Hynyf. You danc every well man. We LURVE it!!

the CLIMAX!

Daen brought us to watch ''Song of the SEA". It was awesome. WOW~ super-nice larh... & we are the very first group to get in to choose the best sitting place to watch it. All, thanx to Daen!

Amsterdam + Absolute = SEX

Hahakz... Got DRUNK for few hours. Thanx to you. hehekz.. We also played Truth or Dare. Thanx ekh Ayul n Shila. lolx.. JENG!

sunSHINE;

very cold, it was raining heavily. overall it was FUN arh!! when is the next one ar people?? lox..

You: had a great one that night.. sshhh..

yenny: very naughtying wih him.. ehem...

anna: took photo with her idol dancer.

adam: took photos secretly. i know. why seh?

daen: drag dance! 'explored' someone's Anaconda. JENG!

hynyf: you dance well with ur eys close. very charismatic.

nadia: left right left right left right...

mast: buah ape yg pelik??

shila: thanx for the food!!

fariz: thanx for the food also && our handphones too!

ayul: still have feelings for her??!! hahakz..

an: stop it eh mabok! lolx...

rizal: "penasihat" for An & Her.

did i miss anyone??? idts.

Overlal was very fun.. Thanx!! Lurve u all folks!! Muackiesz...

dA'Ruth

Appreciation & Forgivenss

2007-06-19T17:18:00.000+08:00

This will be my debut post in this account. Thanx again to you in helping me creating this account for me.

about My life now,

kinda complicated and various.

None seems to understand inside me.

They just listen and watch wherever i go and act.

But now at least i have someone to turn to.

I will not regret in making that decision to be with you.

I know it is ridiculous but i think we are fated.

&& I just need someone to love.

Thanx to You. *hugs*

to 'D'

I really do appreciate you.

You have come at the right time for me.

Thanx but unfortunately we cant be together.

I am still looking for the reasons why.

Who to blame in this??

Myself? You? or Him?

I cant ever get the right one.

I thought none can ever replace my Mr Same Name,

but u did.

You manged to take away my heart from him.

Although i'm Him now, i will never forget about you.

The times we have spent together of course.

Forgive me if i have hurt you.

Thanx alot for being with me on that

short moment of time yet memorable and sweet one.

You made me think.

*kisses*

to 'F'

I'm sorry if i have hurt your feelings.

I really cant be with you.

I am just scared that i will be hurting you again.

Being with you has changed me alot.

You have thought me about true love.

The secrets of you make me a stronger lover and faithful one.

Though we are not together,

"RuthfynBe3"

will always be with me.

Guiding me as shadows to go deeper in love.

I really appreciate you.

Nobody gonna love me better

I must stick with you forever.

Nobody gonna take me higher

I must stick with you.

You know how to appreciate me

I must stick with you forever.

Nobody have ever make me feel the same

I must stick with you.

dA'Ruth